argh.
fuck today. and fuck 90% of the people in it. things have been so shitty lately, and then today turned out to be a great day... until about 1:00. two people - who will remain completely nameless - decided that they wanted to talk about suicide and current events. yeah, well fuck you. all that bullshit you were saying "i don't feel sorry, they're just weak" yes. PURE BULLSHIT. you've obviously never been in that position. you've obviously never been affected by this extreme. you don't know what the fuck you're talking about, so shut your fucking mouth.
okay, i'm done ranting about that, even though there is so much more i could say...
so let's go to faith and religion... i have completely lost belief in both. Matt said it perfectly in his last eljay entry. it's funny, i was just telling Nadine the other day the same thing. religion and "god" are easily proven as fake. how, you ask? well, let me tell you. there are two things that i like to call archeology and geology. "god" has nothing to do with how mountains are formed. "god" has nothing to do with why people change, or even why the world changes. i'm sorry if any of you reading this are religious, but i just can't see how you figure it all works. label me? sure, atheist. hate me? go for it.
and then to my sickness... i have been so sick, but i'm finally starting to get better. i had some sort of virus, and what do the doctors treat me for? a sinus infection and bronchitis. was i sneezing? runny nose? nope. was i coughing? having a hard time breathing? not at all. it only took four different trips to the doctor in a month for them to give me these prescriptions that did nothing for me too. although, i did get some pretty nifty pain pills out of the whole deal... hah, but now i'm sure that all of them at that office think i am a hypochondriac. sure, it runs in my family, but no, i am not a hypochondriac.
friday night's show was awesome, i had a lot of fun. thanks guys, i needed that. and! everyone of you should check out A Killer's Agenda. purevolume and myspace. do it. great local band.
tomorrow night i was supposed to go see Greeley Estates with Nadine and take more lollies to Josh and Brian hahahaha, good times... but it's looking like that isn't going to happen :( i guess my mom volunteered me to go to flagstaff with my dad to help him out with his work stuff up there. and i really have no problem at all doing that, i'm glad to be able to help out. but seriously. out of all weekends. and! i was going to hang out with Katie on saturday, and i haven't seen her in forever. oh well though i guess. there's always April for the next planned greeley show :( but but!! it's Taste of Chaos, and that is definitely something to look forward to anyway.
oh yeah, and Danny - - - i am so sorry for going off on you in math earlier when you asked about the homework... hah, you caught me right after this bullshit, and i would have gone off on anyone. i'm sorry, you're still the reason i am going to pass that class this semester! haha
oh well though. i think i'm done. comments are always good, even though no one reads this - other than Nadine... meaning, i'll get like two comments, max. oh well, what can you do.