a girl plays the violin, and cries because the sound is so pure
Waking up this morning and turning fifteen never felt so hollow.
Last night i saw bright eyes with Jim James and M. Ward and it was a beautiful night of acoustic performances that rocked. I went with Al(lison) and Wiley, two juniors so they were a little older than me. Honestly, i thought the upper classmen might be snobby towards me, but they weren't at all. Wiley let me sit in the front seat as Al drove, they never tried to ditch me in the crowd or anything, and Al was all for it when i asked if i could get a ride down. I was too quiet, but i was also pretty young to be there. The crowd average was older than me anyway.
So M. ward played first, then Connor made an appearance on stage to collaborate with him, then Jim James (my morning jacket) and then jim james played alone. I liked his voice, M. Ward i just like his guitar playing abilities, i didn't care for his lyrics. This took forever though, and i wanted to see Connor, so i found myself becoming anxious. When he did come out, he played only 3 or 4 songs that i did know, and none of my personal favorite. He was pretty emotional on Laura Laurent, missing some lyrics because he just couldn't talk or something. He played a new song, something called "nowhere" and i loved it. The begining went a little like this, or along the lines of :
If you say there is no truth, how can you say
that there isn't?
why are you so afraid to believe in God
when all you dream of is salvation?
The man Connor Oberst needs to be saved. I was a little disappointed to find out he smoked, i already knew he drank, no big deal. But i really hate smoking. And his unlucky luck with woman. sometimes i think that i'll also be alone forever. Yes, i know i'm only 15 (not technically til 3:08 this afternoon though) but its just this feeling i get. Good to know i'm not alone, i've got connor. I really wanted him to play A Perfect Sonnet because i just love it, but he was playing all his more folksy songs, not his "emoish" songs if your comfortable with the term. All of his songs are emotional, but i was thinking more when he was yelling a little bit more and a bit more sad, if that's possible. Does that make sense? Anyway, Al and Wiley are both close to getting someone and they asked me if i was close. I said no, but i had been at one time in my life. Thinking back that is one thing that makes me never want to be close to a guy in the same way, that asshole. Yeah yeah i'll get over it. Question is do I want to?
So last night i dreamt that i was finally falling in love with someone i kinda like now because of his politeness, good humor and such. He's also hot but looks prove nothing, as in Connor's case.Connor is very good looking, but it doesn't prove much seeming he is very messed up. He's got a good heart though. Anyway, back to the dream. He held my hands because they were freezing and his were warm. We sat together at this thing, i don't know what it was. Some hockey get together or what-not. Now that i can't remember what happened, its best forgetting it. It would just make me want something i can't get even more. i suppose i should try, but he's probably out of reach. Anyway, i've got my friends to love, let's hope that is enough.
So now that i am fifteen and life will just get harder, and i am only getting older, what is there to look forward to? Another Bright Eyes concert, no collaboration, just Bright Eyes so he can play more songs i know. Also, because i need a t-shirt. i decided not to buy one last night and sorta regret it. Like i said, that just means i have to go see him again.
Last night i saw bright eyes with Jim James and M. Ward and it was a beautiful night of acoustic performances that rocked. I went with Al(lison) and Wiley, two juniors so they were a little older than me. Honestly, i thought the upper classmen might be snobby towards me, but they weren't at all. Wiley let me sit in the front seat as Al drove, they never tried to ditch me in the crowd or anything, and Al was all for it when i asked if i could get a ride down. I was too quiet, but i was also pretty young to be there. The crowd average was older than me anyway.
So M. ward played first, then Connor made an appearance on stage to collaborate with him, then Jim James (my morning jacket) and then jim james played alone. I liked his voice, M. Ward i just like his guitar playing abilities, i didn't care for his lyrics. This took forever though, and i wanted to see Connor, so i found myself becoming anxious. When he did come out, he played only 3 or 4 songs that i did know, and none of my personal favorite. He was pretty emotional on Laura Laurent, missing some lyrics because he just couldn't talk or something. He played a new song, something called "nowhere" and i loved it. The begining went a little like this, or along the lines of :
If you say there is no truth, how can you say
that there isn't?
why are you so afraid to believe in God
when all you dream of is salvation?
The man Connor Oberst needs to be saved. I was a little disappointed to find out he smoked, i already knew he drank, no big deal. But i really hate smoking. And his unlucky luck with woman. sometimes i think that i'll also be alone forever. Yes, i know i'm only 15 (not technically til 3:08 this afternoon though) but its just this feeling i get. Good to know i'm not alone, i've got connor. I really wanted him to play A Perfect Sonnet because i just love it, but he was playing all his more folksy songs, not his "emoish" songs if your comfortable with the term. All of his songs are emotional, but i was thinking more when he was yelling a little bit more and a bit more sad, if that's possible. Does that make sense? Anyway, Al and Wiley are both close to getting someone and they asked me if i was close. I said no, but i had been at one time in my life. Thinking back that is one thing that makes me never want to be close to a guy in the same way, that asshole. Yeah yeah i'll get over it. Question is do I want to?
So last night i dreamt that i was finally falling in love with someone i kinda like now because of his politeness, good humor and such. He's also hot but looks prove nothing, as in Connor's case.Connor is very good looking, but it doesn't prove much seeming he is very messed up. He's got a good heart though. Anyway, back to the dream. He held my hands because they were freezing and his were warm. We sat together at this thing, i don't know what it was. Some hockey get together or what-not. Now that i can't remember what happened, its best forgetting it. It would just make me want something i can't get even more. i suppose i should try, but he's probably out of reach. Anyway, i've got my friends to love, let's hope that is enough.
So now that i am fifteen and life will just get harder, and i am only getting older, what is there to look forward to? Another Bright Eyes concert, no collaboration, just Bright Eyes so he can play more songs i know. Also, because i need a t-shirt. i decided not to buy one last night and sorta regret it. Like i said, that just means i have to go see him again.