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[xgirlbotx]

I had quite a wonderful day today, except for when I got home. I got an A on an essay which of course made me feel pretty happy. My U.S. Govmt. class, which is 3 hours long, was awesome because it was discussing media and it's methods of covering politics, with me being a Journalist, was the shit. I got into a few arguments with some of the

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[dolly_fatale]

Curious...what is your age?

[xgirlbotx]

I'll be 20 in two months, but I find this is true for most people until they are around 30.

[dolly_fatale]

I know what you mean. I am 21 and cannot stand nor relate to most people anywhere near my age.

[xgirlbotx]

Maybe it is because I think too deeply into things, but most of the time I would rather stay at home and read a good Russian author, play a video game, or paint than go out, pop some pills, or pick up someone to fuck. I have nothing against sex, but I do not physically want to be with someone until there is something there mentally. A few people, typically a few years older than me, act as if I am a childlike dreamer in that sense who is missing out on fucking people "hot" while I am "hot". I just feel there are so many other beautiful parts of life to enjoy every day other than that.

[dolly_fatale]

Yeah. Me, I would rather sit at home and read through Sappho and poetry anthologies, or scribble nonsense in my notebook than engage in conversation that would not at all be mentally fulfilling...Granted, every here and there I do go out, pop some pills...but never pick up someone to fuck. I am too afraid of STD's for that, for one...also, there needs to be attatchment. I don't get off unless there is more of a mental and emotional connection...nedless to say, sex with strangers doesn't do it for me. I flirt, yes...but the only people I will even truly flirt with are long time friends whom I know I connect with. I can't be intimate with someone when I don't feel safe. Anyhow, I have my g/f. Yes, we go through a lot and the past month has been rocky as hell for us, but times with her are the best I have had when they're good, and after that, anything a stranger could offer would be even less satisfactory than it already was. I am rambleing. A lot of my friends pick on me because I am this hopelessly romantic girl with her heart out in

[xgirlbotx]

Once you've slept with an intense love, nothing even compares. I am not still holding onto past loves, but I know how much better it is when there is love, respect, and a true connection that goes beyond words. That is what blows my mind. I am a romantic, although I refrain from attaching "hopeless" onto that, that finds the best part of life is Romance, and that doesn't always have to be with another person. Romance is hidden everywhere, and I don't want to cloud my mind or escape from it, and that includes being with people that do not impress my mind. A stranger does not know how to please me mentally or physically, which provides me nothing.

[dolly_fatale]

It sets me back when you know what someone is saying and feeling towards you through the way they look at you, breathe on you, touch you more than you would ever understand with words. I live for those type of relationships, as rare as they are. I wouldn't call myself hopeless, personally...it's just what everyone else calls me. To me, being hopeless would mean I had never been shown any reason for romanticism, and I've been shown far from...You're so right about romance being hidden everywhere, though...I think I like how your mind works.

[xgirlbotx]

Thank you. I believe in love because I have felt it, and know that it can exist, and it is what gives me the most inspiration. Even though words are how I live to express myself with, the moments that can't speak is what is most beautiful. Some things in life words can't do justice to.

[dolly_fatale]

Words are far too easily misinterpreted...