Today...
Well, let's see.
I went over to Andrew's this morning at 9, and stayed til 2:30 or so. He and I talked about a lot of stuff, like why he hasn't been hanging out with me at school and stuff. He's just really busy...he loves guitar and now that he's in a band he's totally dedicated. I really respect him for being so dedicated to something he loves, really, I do. But it just also sucks as well because that means that I can hardly ever see him. I'm like, "Well, do you have to always go to the guitar room at lunch just to tune stuff?" "Yeah...I don't just tune I teach other people songs and stuff." (note: he wants to be a T.A. *teacher's assistant* next year for that class.) So we were talking about that. This might be TMI for some of you, but hey this is my journal. Don't like it don't read it...I was giving him a bj and he just wouldn't cum for some reason. He was like...holding back to make it last longer lol. But like...it ended up being a two-hour (yes, two-hours) thing...and my mouth hurt really bad because of my braces and all...so he's like, "Oh my God I'm so sorry...I'll make it up to you, I swear. Whatever you want," I'm like, "What I want is for you to spend time with me more often. You don't really know how much I treasure our time with each other - it's so scarce lately. It's like...when I do see you, I'm so happy and I never want it to end. And when it does end, I'm sad because I never know the next time I'll get to be with you because of your busy schedule." "Yeah, well, don't think this isn't hard on me too. I miss spending time with you and being with you. But you have to realize that this [band] is something that I really want to do. It's something I have my heart set on. It's a goal that I'm determined to work hard for." "I know, Andrew, and I really respect that. You know what you wanna do and by all means you work your ass off to do what you love. I have your back. It's just kinda frusturating, because I want what's best for you. I want you to be happy; I want you to do what you love...it just saddens me that doing what you love takes time away from me lately. I really miss you Andrew. I miss hanging out with you at lunch, I miss getting kisses from you and hugs...that's all." "Well here then, Lindz. How about this. To make things up to you, I'll only go to the guitar room like once or twice a week." "Are you sure? I mean, don't get me wrong I want to spend time with you but I don't want to take time away from you working for your goal or doing what you love..." "No, it's fine. I'm going to make this up to you. And, since I have to go to band practice later and I can't hang out with you the whole day like I'd like to...next weekend...you - me - Saturday?" "Well, what about band practice? What if something comes up?" "Lindz, I pinky promise that next weekend I'll hang out with you on Saturday...AND SUNDAY!" "Both..days..?" "Yes. Both days, ok?" He smiled and gave me a kiss. I'm like, "Well, I'm worried that you'll get to wrapped up in your band that you'll lose feeling for me..again.." "No. If I even feel like I'm getting bored I'll tell you - I won't make the same mistake I did over spring break. I'll talk to you first from now on, ok? This month and maybe more are going to be really busy for me. But after we make a CD, we're guna be laid back for a few months. Then, we'll be able to see each other a lot, ok? Things will be rough, but I'm guna work it out." (Andrew already knows that I'm devoted. That I'll stick by him no matter what.)
I'm so glad we had that talk. I got so much stuff out and so did he. We really needed that. I love him...so much!
So then after I got picked up by dad, we went to Terri's barbeque. *Her husband, Steve, is dying of cancer. He has only 2-3 weeks left to live.* Wow, that was fun. No, I'm serious, it was really fun! I had a blast! I was hanging out with this nice lady named Patricia, and we were talking. I made fun of my dad in front of basically everyone at the party and I got so many laughs. She said I'm too cool for him, haha - that got me going! Not to be conceited, but I really livened up that party! And I had no idea Curtis McCabe's dad knew Terri!! So I was sitting there having a really nice conversation with him. He's a nice guy. Open, but nice nonetheless. Let's see...I took 3 Vicodin over the 3 hours I was over there. One when I got there with my amoxicillin for pain/anti-biotics. Then two the last 15 minutes I was there with a sip of dad's beer. I think it's pretty safe to say I'm feelin righteous right about now, lol. Terri gave me her number, and I put mine in her phone. She totally loves me, and I love her too! She's such an awesome lady. She wants to take me out to dinner with her two daughters maybe tomorrow or Tuesday at the OutBack Steakhouse. She says I'm a lot like her daughter Tanya, and she thinks we'd be really good friends. I think Tanya's like...16? I ono...but she sounded cool. So yeah. Terri's all, "Yeah, girl. I got your back, ok? No matter what I got your back." I'm like, "So..say I ran away from home. I could come here?" "Yeah you could live here if ya wanted to haha!" I thought that was pretty cool.
Well I'm guna go. I have someone waiting to talk to me on AIM so I'll catch ya later.
Leave me some comments if ya love me.
♥
-Lindsay-
I went over to Andrew's this morning at 9, and stayed til 2:30 or so. He and I talked about a lot of stuff, like why he hasn't been hanging out with me at school and stuff. He's just really busy...he loves guitar and now that he's in a band he's totally dedicated. I really respect him for being so dedicated to something he loves, really, I do. But it just also sucks as well because that means that I can hardly ever see him. I'm like, "Well, do you have to always go to the guitar room at lunch just to tune stuff?" "Yeah...I don't just tune I teach other people songs and stuff." (note: he wants to be a T.A. *teacher's assistant* next year for that class.) So we were talking about that. This might be TMI for some of you, but hey this is my journal. Don't like it don't read it...I was giving him a bj and he just wouldn't cum for some reason. He was like...holding back to make it last longer lol. But like...it ended up being a two-hour (yes, two-hours) thing...and my mouth hurt really bad because of my braces and all...so he's like, "Oh my God I'm so sorry...I'll make it up to you, I swear. Whatever you want," I'm like, "What I want is for you to spend time with me more often. You don't really know how much I treasure our time with each other - it's so scarce lately. It's like...when I do see you, I'm so happy and I never want it to end. And when it does end, I'm sad because I never know the next time I'll get to be with you because of your busy schedule." "Yeah, well, don't think this isn't hard on me too. I miss spending time with you and being with you. But you have to realize that this [band] is something that I really want to do. It's something I have my heart set on. It's a goal that I'm determined to work hard for." "I know, Andrew, and I really respect that. You know what you wanna do and by all means you work your ass off to do what you love. I have your back. It's just kinda frusturating, because I want what's best for you. I want you to be happy; I want you to do what you love...it just saddens me that doing what you love takes time away from me lately. I really miss you Andrew. I miss hanging out with you at lunch, I miss getting kisses from you and hugs...that's all." "Well here then, Lindz. How about this. To make things up to you, I'll only go to the guitar room like once or twice a week." "Are you sure? I mean, don't get me wrong I want to spend time with you but I don't want to take time away from you working for your goal or doing what you love..." "No, it's fine. I'm going to make this up to you. And, since I have to go to band practice later and I can't hang out with you the whole day like I'd like to...next weekend...you - me - Saturday?" "Well, what about band practice? What if something comes up?" "Lindz, I pinky promise that next weekend I'll hang out with you on Saturday...AND SUNDAY!" "Both..days..?" "Yes. Both days, ok?" He smiled and gave me a kiss. I'm like, "Well, I'm worried that you'll get to wrapped up in your band that you'll lose feeling for me..again.." "No. If I even feel like I'm getting bored I'll tell you - I won't make the same mistake I did over spring break. I'll talk to you first from now on, ok? This month and maybe more are going to be really busy for me. But after we make a CD, we're guna be laid back for a few months. Then, we'll be able to see each other a lot, ok? Things will be rough, but I'm guna work it out." (Andrew already knows that I'm devoted. That I'll stick by him no matter what.)
I'm so glad we had that talk. I got so much stuff out and so did he. We really needed that. I love him...so much!
So then after I got picked up by dad, we went to Terri's barbeque. *Her husband, Steve, is dying of cancer. He has only 2-3 weeks left to live.* Wow, that was fun. No, I'm serious, it was really fun! I had a blast! I was hanging out with this nice lady named Patricia, and we were talking. I made fun of my dad in front of basically everyone at the party and I got so many laughs. She said I'm too cool for him, haha - that got me going! Not to be conceited, but I really livened up that party! And I had no idea Curtis McCabe's dad knew Terri!! So I was sitting there having a really nice conversation with him. He's a nice guy. Open, but nice nonetheless. Let's see...I took 3 Vicodin over the 3 hours I was over there. One when I got there with my amoxicillin for pain/anti-biotics. Then two the last 15 minutes I was there with a sip of dad's beer. I think it's pretty safe to say I'm feelin righteous right about now, lol. Terri gave me her number, and I put mine in her phone. She totally loves me, and I love her too! She's such an awesome lady. She wants to take me out to dinner with her two daughters maybe tomorrow or Tuesday at the OutBack Steakhouse. She says I'm a lot like her daughter Tanya, and she thinks we'd be really good friends. I think Tanya's like...16? I ono...but she sounded cool. So yeah. Terri's all, "Yeah, girl. I got your back, ok? No matter what I got your back." I'm like, "So..say I ran away from home. I could come here?" "Yeah you could live here if ya wanted to haha!" I thought that was pretty cool.
Well I'm guna go. I have someone waiting to talk to me on AIM so I'll catch ya later.
Leave me some comments if ya love me.
♥
-Lindsay-