Great
I just needed to blow off some steam, so dont worry about reading this.
I have done so good lately, been so nice,, tried to be happy just so i can make her happy not give her any problems, but look what i get. 10:30 in the moring and all of a sudden out of nowhere, its "We need to have a chat". Did i do something? No. thats where i went wrong. If i woulda done something that question never would have been asked.NEVER. well, no never, but it would not have been now. I knew i had a bad feeling, and it scared me. at least its not what i trhought it was gonna be? yeah, but its on its way there. The questions are going to build up, and form one big question, and then she will ask me if it's alright. Even if i say no, it wont matter. Exactly what just happened. I said "Thats an imediate no", but whatever, the reply is "well youll have to get used to that idea" God do i have to lie. It doesnt matter does it. I just dont care anymore, its not like my oppinion has anything to do with it. Even if it did. she wouldnt give a care. Now, most of you know ill be leaving for tahoe on tuesday, but who else is comeing on this family trip? Someone whos not really family. actually 3 someones. The time i get to spend with them alone is now limited and will be taken up by someone else. She never once mentioned it to Gabe. Gabe is my hero, hes just so great. its as if she doesnt even think hes a part of the family, just cause he doesnt live with us. He has oppnions too, and as long as hes here, we should spend as much time with him as possible. I know he will act like he doesnt care, hes stronger tehn most of us in this world. He can put up with crap. I can too, and i have for a long time, but its building up and i cant deal with it anymore. well i can, i shouldnt say i cant, im dealing with it right now. Not dealing with it would be putting a gun to my head, and i wouldnt do that.Never. Lucky for me i have a few people in this world that i love enough to stay here for. There what keeps me going.
I think im done blowing off my steam.
Just dont bother reading this