Seriously
ok i was 16 or 17 when i wrote this shit and now im 20 years old and heres my update. I had Topher, we were together for about 4 months then things went bad. Im still not over him and now i honestly know that i will never fall out of love with him. I havent even found anyone who comes close to topher. I really dont think im going to find anyone that makes me feel the way he does. I really dont know what do anymore. I have a car a job and im about to get my own place and im trying so hard to be happy but i know im not truely happy unless im with him. I just need a miracle because im never going to be able to get out of this situation ive been in for 6 years. 4th of July is coming up and its our holiday and we have spent the past 5 4th of julys together. this will be the first year without him and i dont know what to do. Now that ive spent every holiday with him this year, no holiday will ever be the same.