Martyrdom
Well havent updated this thing in a while, heh who cares no1 reads it, idc, stupid journal. They say its good to keep a journal,but what happens when u forget about it? hmmm, o well. So ya, I hated schl out here so I stopped going. Decided to do home schl cuz apparently i benefit more from it. Need job to help pay for it, lol, stupid thing tho, I've actually kept count of how many applications I've filled out, and the count is 78, heh. Odd. w/e. I've been staying home doing nothing...not much emotion in my life anymore...idk why. To think I used to be full of it meh. Thoughts always come to pass...will I always be like this, or am I just feeling bitter cuz of recent experiences. heh. Bitterness does seem to hit the spot. Motivation is such an effort now...have I concluded that trying hard really took a hard hit to my confidence, heh, idk what I'm saying. Im jsut trying to put something in this old PoS journal for old time sakes. Imma stfu and go to bed now.