I Hope Things Get Better
im sick of pretending everything is okay, because its not. im so scared that my mom isnt going to wake up from her brain surgery. yes i said it. its prolly news to all of you, well the ones that havent been around.
last week my dad went in for knee surgery and has been in pain for a few days now, so ive been feeling bad for him cause it seems like the pain is unbearable.
now i have to worry about my mom too. i mean ive always worried about her, but now i have to really hope for the best and watch what i say. a while ago she found out that she has excess fluid building up in her brain that is putting pressure on it causing her to forget things, lose her balance, and even not know how to do the simplest of things. i feel even worse because i cant do anything to help except work with her to try to make things easier on her. i feel like by going away to school id be putting even more of a damper on things. i dont know what to do anymore.
on friday shes going in for surgery at 6am in manhattan. since im off of work, im gonna go with her and my dad, and im gonna stay at that hospital until i find out that theyre done with the surgery and that shes doing fine. i really hope everything goes okay. im so scared that this week could be my last week with her. if one thing goes wrong she could lose all of her memory, have a stroke, or even worse. and i dont want to mention the unmentionable risk. i just want for her to be okay, rest in the hospital for a few days, and then come home and have everything be like normal again.
anyways im gonna go, i figured i should finally be honest about whats been going on with my parents and our recent situations.
last week my dad went in for knee surgery and has been in pain for a few days now, so ive been feeling bad for him cause it seems like the pain is unbearable.
now i have to worry about my mom too. i mean ive always worried about her, but now i have to really hope for the best and watch what i say. a while ago she found out that she has excess fluid building up in her brain that is putting pressure on it causing her to forget things, lose her balance, and even not know how to do the simplest of things. i feel even worse because i cant do anything to help except work with her to try to make things easier on her. i feel like by going away to school id be putting even more of a damper on things. i dont know what to do anymore.
on friday shes going in for surgery at 6am in manhattan. since im off of work, im gonna go with her and my dad, and im gonna stay at that hospital until i find out that theyre done with the surgery and that shes doing fine. i really hope everything goes okay. im so scared that this week could be my last week with her. if one thing goes wrong she could lose all of her memory, have a stroke, or even worse. and i dont want to mention the unmentionable risk. i just want for her to be okay, rest in the hospital for a few days, and then come home and have everything be like normal again.
anyways im gonna go, i figured i should finally be honest about whats been going on with my parents and our recent situations.