and i...love you... i just..
so..im babysitting right now.
sorta. i feel..semi-bad cause im definitely downloading AIM onto their computer so i can waste my night away on that..but we'll see. The kids are watchin a movie- hopefully fallin asleep..i dunno. they're good kids. i let'm do whatever. the upside to all this. free computer time plus mulah at the end of the night. sweet.
ive been thinkin alot today..ever since this morning..really..about..things.
many that i can't write in the eljay..or the xanga even- because both are public, and..i really dont want to sound to over critical and ridiculous about somethings.
there are things i apparently dont..understand..or, i dont know- dont properly adjust to. and- its awkward for me..i cant really go into detail- so i know this all sounds completely mindless. but- ya'll know me. i worry usually more than needed. but thats me.
im really upset that im not going to be about to go to the party next weekend. i mean..im..gonna try. but ill prolly only be there like..30 minutes after the game. im going to leave as early as i can..i really miss everyone. and it hurts. i cant believe some things we believed to be unbreakable have already fallen through so quickly.
its..really time right now that would be great if i could drive. a decent hour on the road to myself would work wonders on my mind at the moment..
oh yea..kelli went to one of her little friend birthday parties today..and she told her friend Christy that some girl at the party was talking about my Mason..and told kelli "your brother has a funny looking face.."..
i dont think ive ever wanted to punch an 8 year old before..until..well..today.
sorta. i feel..semi-bad cause im definitely downloading AIM onto their computer so i can waste my night away on that..but we'll see. The kids are watchin a movie- hopefully fallin asleep..i dunno. they're good kids. i let'm do whatever. the upside to all this. free computer time plus mulah at the end of the night. sweet.
ive been thinkin alot today..ever since this morning..really..about..things.
many that i can't write in the eljay..or the xanga even- because both are public, and..i really dont want to sound to over critical and ridiculous about somethings.
there are things i apparently dont..understand..or, i dont know- dont properly adjust to. and- its awkward for me..i cant really go into detail- so i know this all sounds completely mindless. but- ya'll know me. i worry usually more than needed. but thats me.
im really upset that im not going to be about to go to the party next weekend. i mean..im..gonna try. but ill prolly only be there like..30 minutes after the game. im going to leave as early as i can..i really miss everyone. and it hurts. i cant believe some things we believed to be unbreakable have already fallen through so quickly.
its..really time right now that would be great if i could drive. a decent hour on the road to myself would work wonders on my mind at the moment..
oh yea..kelli went to one of her little friend birthday parties today..and she told her friend Christy that some girl at the party was talking about my Mason..and told kelli "your brother has a funny looking face.."..
i dont think ive ever wanted to punch an 8 year old before..until..well..today.