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:( this whole bobby/tish thing is just too much for me. It's made me relize how much I do care for him (as a friend and more I guess) its made me resent tish and its just put an all over strain on my life. I mean I'm happy to see him happy, well as happy as he can get, but it still hurts like way down in the bottem or ur stomach and real deep in ur heart. And tish isnt the same tish anymore she's changed almost 180 since b4 all this. I mean b4 she would bad mouth him when I went out with him and after and now its all lovey dovey glances at eachother and hand holding it makes me feel so out of place. Like a little sister I guess, loved but not needed.Normally when I get upset about something in my life I take it out on the government, right now I'm tearing thru every michael moore and ralph nader book I can get my hands on, starting political debates in every class and begging my rentss to move to Canada to escape Bush. Yeah I guess that kinda shows how upset I've been as of late if my uber bitch attitude hasn't