I'm a sucker for love...
obviously. I always fall for his dumbass lies. Everytime. All it takes is him to say 'things will be different this time' and I fucking believe it. And it's NEVER changes. So why do I keep falling for it? All it does is fuck with my head. I've fucked up somethings and friendships just so I could be with him, and this time forreal. Well that went down the drain like everyother time. I wont let myself fall for it again. No matter how much I like him or care for him.. Fuck that. I cant take it anymore. Why am I so stupid to fall for it everyfucking time?!?! I know he's not going to change. Yet, I go for him again and again anyways. What is wrong with me. UGGGH. Fuck it. He's played this stupid game with my head for 2 years now. And now I'm finally ending it. FOR GOOD. :'(
I just wish, that for once, I would be with someone that actually cared for me.. that wouldnt cheat on me. Nor hang up on me or ignore my calls. Or hang out with my friends behind my back or flirt with them. Someone who actually liked me, not the idea of me... ME. I'm tired of havin my mind played with. I'm tired of all the bullshit little lies. I'm tired of the heartache.
I know this is easier said than done. But I'm not letting myself go back. This is the end. I am finally moving on with my life.
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I just wish, that for once, I would be with someone that actually cared for me.. that wouldnt cheat on me. Nor hang up on me or ignore my calls. Or hang out with my friends behind my back or flirt with them. Someone who actually liked me, not the idea of me... ME. I'm tired of havin my mind played with. I'm tired of all the bullshit little lies. I'm tired of the heartache.
I know this is easier said than done. But I'm not letting myself go back. This is the end. I am finally moving on with my life.
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