Hm
The worst thing anyone ever said to me was "life's not fair."
They were right. But I wonder sometimes... when we actually learned that.
When did I start becoming soooo angry?
When you find out money rules the world and you don't have it.
Where your allowance isn't an apartment to rent or 7 grand or an XBox or anything...
Anything...
And you try to make the grade and do and maybe you get a pat on the back.
Most of the time you don't.
Where you pick the better of the two based on the last time your father hit you.
And your mother asked you to leave.
Would pay you to leave.
Imprison you from getting what you need.
Offer for school but emotions don't play into it.
Tell me, when did I first know I'd be sitting here? While they're in Springfield today?
Some place I can't go.
When did I get so angry?
So damn angry.
44 grand a year
To study something.
What is that?
Why am I so mad at that? Would I go? If I got in, I'd never be able to afford it.
But if I could... would I GO?
Well I'd love a degree from BU so maybe I would go.
Maybe I would go.
But... how old was I?
There was a time earlier on in my life where my mother said when we moved into our second house that she needed a new drain for the sink, the ones that keep water from leaving... but she couldn't afford it and it was $1.37. She never bought it.
And when my sister was born my mother and father were living in the back of a historic house in my time, with a break on rent for dusting and cleaning before every tour.
And then mama got her masters in public health and took a great job... well hell at the end of it she was makin 62 grand a year with an annual raise, doing such good work for the state.
So we bought a house, gutted it, fixed it, 3 floors, one of the biggest houses in my little hometown... everything was shiny and new, lots of land, daddy bought a big tv that were weren't allowed to watch
The house was cold and dogs barked outside constantly...
And daddy was always angry.
There was no... NES or ... trips to tropical islands... we didn't have that much, not sure why, we never did those things.........
Then daddy got really angry and mom divorced him when she found my sister crying her eyes out in a closet one day
The women's shelter...
Daddy left and my sister and I well we spent every weekend sleeping on someone else's floor with my father...
God bless the court system, right?
Visitation rights.
When I realized what was going on I stopped... when I was 15 I stopped going and thank God, he didn't argue.
Maybe he knew
What I'd say.
Then ma got laid off by the state, forced to retire and that 62 grand that she EARNED every penny of was lost
and she retired... to 27 grand a year.
So you wanna sit here and tell me life's not fair yeah I learned that
I learned that a long long time ago
And I'm sorry it's made me so damn bitter but what would you expect?
Me to fall down drunk like daddy?
Did it
Redemption is a fantastic word as I seek my revenge on monetary happiness and dream job and I'll let you know if life's ever fair again...
But they're driving to a place I can't go.
And even if I did, it wouldn't be the same, 7 grand isn't sitting in my bank account, paying it back's a burden
Nothing my... mother would pay off for me like someone else or
Help me with or daddy would really understand
There's no rich uncle
There's no...college allowance
I'm 23 years old, I'm on my own.
You're right, life's not fair.
They were right. But I wonder sometimes... when we actually learned that.
When did I start becoming soooo angry?
When you find out money rules the world and you don't have it.
Where your allowance isn't an apartment to rent or 7 grand or an XBox or anything...
Anything...
And you try to make the grade and do and maybe you get a pat on the back.
Most of the time you don't.
Where you pick the better of the two based on the last time your father hit you.
And your mother asked you to leave.
Would pay you to leave.
Imprison you from getting what you need.
Offer for school but emotions don't play into it.
Tell me, when did I first know I'd be sitting here? While they're in Springfield today?
Some place I can't go.
When did I get so angry?
So damn angry.
44 grand a year
To study something.
What is that?
Why am I so mad at that? Would I go? If I got in, I'd never be able to afford it.
But if I could... would I GO?
Well I'd love a degree from BU so maybe I would go.
Maybe I would go.
But... how old was I?
There was a time earlier on in my life where my mother said when we moved into our second house that she needed a new drain for the sink, the ones that keep water from leaving... but she couldn't afford it and it was $1.37. She never bought it.
And when my sister was born my mother and father were living in the back of a historic house in my time, with a break on rent for dusting and cleaning before every tour.
And then mama got her masters in public health and took a great job... well hell at the end of it she was makin 62 grand a year with an annual raise, doing such good work for the state.
So we bought a house, gutted it, fixed it, 3 floors, one of the biggest houses in my little hometown... everything was shiny and new, lots of land, daddy bought a big tv that were weren't allowed to watch
The house was cold and dogs barked outside constantly...
And daddy was always angry.
There was no... NES or ... trips to tropical islands... we didn't have that much, not sure why, we never did those things.........
Then daddy got really angry and mom divorced him when she found my sister crying her eyes out in a closet one day
The women's shelter...
Daddy left and my sister and I well we spent every weekend sleeping on someone else's floor with my father...
God bless the court system, right?
Visitation rights.
When I realized what was going on I stopped... when I was 15 I stopped going and thank God, he didn't argue.
Maybe he knew
What I'd say.
Then ma got laid off by the state, forced to retire and that 62 grand that she EARNED every penny of was lost
and she retired... to 27 grand a year.
So you wanna sit here and tell me life's not fair yeah I learned that
I learned that a long long time ago
And I'm sorry it's made me so damn bitter but what would you expect?
Me to fall down drunk like daddy?
Did it
Redemption is a fantastic word as I seek my revenge on monetary happiness and dream job and I'll let you know if life's ever fair again...
But they're driving to a place I can't go.
And even if I did, it wouldn't be the same, 7 grand isn't sitting in my bank account, paying it back's a burden
Nothing my... mother would pay off for me like someone else or
Help me with or daddy would really understand
There's no rich uncle
There's no...college allowance
I'm 23 years old, I'm on my own.
You're right, life's not fair.