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i havent posted in almost a year, and im pretty sure no one but amber still read this... but yeah
my life is half great and half awful...
i got a job today, im in school im working out...
but my boyfriend, we broke up, and it all boiled down to
hes "never gonna get hurt by anyone again"
and it sucks, because we love each other
and his issues are forcing us apart over and over
and idk what to do anymore
these would be m Kate days
but she doesnt answer my texts anymore
and i undestand, shes got a new life and shit
everyone does now. but i still have Manuel :)
and im thankful for that.
i wish i still had dustin... he hates me so much
and i deserve it... but to get married at 20... it
just scared me to death, and i scared him away
breaking his heart because of my own fears
now im getting pushed away because of someone
elses fears. thats karma for you.
idk
i guess i really didnt need to write after all
... waiting to go to the gym , until its not busy
because i have a fear of being judged. still. lol
my life is half great and half awful...
i got a job today, im in school im working out...
but my boyfriend, we broke up, and it all boiled down to
hes "never gonna get hurt by anyone again"
and it sucks, because we love each other
and his issues are forcing us apart over and over
and idk what to do anymore
these would be m Kate days
but she doesnt answer my texts anymore
and i undestand, shes got a new life and shit
everyone does now. but i still have Manuel :)
and im thankful for that.
i wish i still had dustin... he hates me so much
and i deserve it... but to get married at 20... it
just scared me to death, and i scared him away
breaking his heart because of my own fears
now im getting pushed away because of someone
elses fears. thats karma for you.
idk
i guess i really didnt need to write after all
... waiting to go to the gym , until its not busy
because i have a fear of being judged. still. lol