June 30
Prom was great. To most people. I found it very irritating, like a rash you desperately want off your skin.
I found out something. Something that could have made up for the entire night of blah. And that something was... My friends lied to me saying that they didn't speak to a particular person when they actually did. He/She asked this someone to ask me to dance.
*Breaks out in hysterical laughter*
This particular person said they would... if he knew how to dance. Like buddy, I can't dance either but I at least can do the two-steps.
When I heard about this, I wanted to snap my friend's neck and at the same time, I loved what I was hearing.
But NO it's over, I must let go and it's for the better. Yup.
Now that prom has passed, the end of high school hasn't hit me just yet. Though it's starting to slowly seep into my system... and I'm beginning to realize that I don't want it to end, I'm not ready to let go, I don't want to move on... because in the back of my mind, I'm still craving for the things that satisfied my life.
The thought of those things I'm never going to see, feel or hear in the future... I hate to say it... will definitely be missed and will set the bar high for other things to come.
As much as I try to avoid the "I'll be missing this and that" scene, I admit, I (mentally) include myself in those stupid/cheesy moments. I just hate to show or share my feelings with people. It makes me feel awkward. And I guess that explains all the "let downs" and "what-ifs" that bother me.
If someone were to ask me if i would re-live HS again, I'd say no for the sake of college guys I'll meet. Other than that, I'm glad HS is over but I'm not glad about leaving the simple feelings I felt and the people who made me feel that way.
You don't miss people, just the way they made you feel. People change but feelings always remain the same.
That's what I learned.
Mommy wow, I'm a big kid now!
I found out something. Something that could have made up for the entire night of blah. And that something was... My friends lied to me saying that they didn't speak to a particular person when they actually did. He/She asked this someone to ask me to dance.
*Breaks out in hysterical laughter*
This particular person said they would... if he knew how to dance. Like buddy, I can't dance either but I at least can do the two-steps.
When I heard about this, I wanted to snap my friend's neck and at the same time, I loved what I was hearing.
But NO it's over, I must let go and it's for the better. Yup.
Now that prom has passed, the end of high school hasn't hit me just yet. Though it's starting to slowly seep into my system... and I'm beginning to realize that I don't want it to end, I'm not ready to let go, I don't want to move on... because in the back of my mind, I'm still craving for the things that satisfied my life.
The thought of those things I'm never going to see, feel or hear in the future... I hate to say it... will definitely be missed and will set the bar high for other things to come.
As much as I try to avoid the "I'll be missing this and that" scene, I admit, I (mentally) include myself in those stupid/cheesy moments. I just hate to show or share my feelings with people. It makes me feel awkward. And I guess that explains all the "let downs" and "what-ifs" that bother me.
If someone were to ask me if i would re-live HS again, I'd say no for the sake of college guys I'll meet. Other than that, I'm glad HS is over but I'm not glad about leaving the simple feelings I felt and the people who made me feel that way.
You don't miss people, just the way they made you feel. People change but feelings always remain the same.
That's what I learned.
Mommy wow, I'm a big kid now!