To any guy that wants to pursue a girl...

Jun 20, 2006 23:04

Here are some things that I want a boy to do for me (and I'm sure that other girls want them too):
1. If you see something that reminds you of me, buy it and give it to me as a present for no reason.
2. Send me love letters or leave me small notes to remind me you care.
3. When I'm sick, make me soup and cuddle with me while we watch a movie.
4. If I look different, say something. I most likely changed something to have you notice.
5. Tell me I look pretty when I'm sad (say something like "i know you had a bad day, but at least you look pretty")
6. When you get mad, don't write it off and let it build up. Tell me what's wrong so we can work it out.
7. Don't be too wrapped up in whatever game happens to be on...get tivo if it's that serious.
8. Don't do things because you feel obligated to...you should want to do them...whatever it may be.
9. Don't call me all the time...I get excited when your calls are random.
10. Hold my hand in public. It shows that you're proud that you're with me.
11. If I cry, know it's not because I want something...I don't normally cry in front of everyone so if I do, it's because I trust you...and don't fuck up that trust.
12. Don't tell me when you think some girl is hot...I don't look like her nor will I ever look like her...you saying that just makes me feel inadequite.
13. Tell me that you appreciate me...

Maybe this is why no one loves me...maybe I ask too much...
I'm kinda sad today. I feel alone. And not because there's no one around, but because I'm single. Don't get me wrong. I love knowing that I don't have to argue over stupid shit or worry that my boyfriend is cheating on me (which is a huge fear of mine now!)...I just feel inadequite. Like I'm not good enough to have a boyfriend. It's funny, I try not to judge people, but I can't help it. Sometimes I look at people and just get so surprised when they say that they're in love...I just ask myself "where did I go wrong? What do I do that makes me so unappealing?" It amazes me how the biggest retards have great relationships, but me being a strong, independent, smart girl...I'm still single. Maybe it's for the better but it really makes me feel bad about myself.

I mean, why do I get like this? It's not like a boyfriend will make things better? My past relationships have shown me that relationships are a waste of time. I'll never realisticly find someone that can put up with me...I'm destined to be alone forever. It's fuckin' rediculous how far behind I am in this game we call life. I mean, Glen is even happy with his relationship/girlfriend/whatever he chooses to call it...and he's the one that fucked up. I feel like all my friends are married, have kids or at least have boyfriends. Am I the only loser alive? I fuckin' hate today. I wish today was over...I wish I was over.
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