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It's been forever and a day since this has been written in. Well there's been alot of stuff happening, with me and with others but i help with their problems to the point that it becomes my problem. My dad has become a complete and utter asshole, i can't even stand the sight of him now. He just finds the littlest things to piss me off and if he thinks he's helping me by doing it he's stupider than i thought. For instance, calling your daughter fat will get you no where and gain you hatred. Fuckin dick. I'm also growing a hatred for almost everyone now too. People just annoy me and do stupid shit and act like morons in one way or another. And if you're reading this don't take offense because it probably doesn't involve you. There's suddenly becoming a problem with me going to college now because it might be too expensive. Well ya know what, if it's that big of a problem, then fuck it i won't go. They were like "well isn't there another college you can go to?" no there isn't because i want to go for photography as a major and the closest one to go to is the Art Institute of Philadelphia. Everywhere else only has it as a minor and i don't want that shit cause then what am i gonna go for as a major? Something i don't want? And to top it off i'm alone. James can't be here all the time and the sight of other couples makes me sick because i don't like other people being happy while i'm miserable, i'm sorry but that's me. Melissa's been goin through some shit with jared and it's making me grow a disliking for him, it really is. He lies all the time and thinks that we're stupid and he'll get away with it. WRONG! And i'm sorry but going to visit your ex girlfriend on a vacation weekend when you can't even spend valentine's day with your girlfriend cause you're working, i'm sorry but that doesn't fly with me. We've asked numerous people too if they would break up with their someone if they were in the situationa and every single one of them said yes. Including me. She doesn't know what to do and wants to break up with him if he comtinues and there's the fear that he'll cheat on her down there with his ex. I think he would because the whole fact that last time they went out, the dumb bitch went around saying that jared was cheatin on melissa with her and then a month after they break up, jar gets with her? Am i missing something here? I really don't understand it and the fact that he's puttin meliss through so much shit and not thinking he's doing anything wrong is really pissing me off. And i'm starting to really dislike him. I have to sit down and have a little chat with him about it cause i speak fluent retard and seem to get through to him. Anyways. Me and rachael are having a dinner party saturday for valentines day with couples and oh guess what? Jared can't go, cause he'd rather be with his ex that weekend. But anyways, i have to put more money into and get the food and everything. I bought james his valentine's gifts. I can't wait to give them to him, I spent like $60 on him, and i hope he likes them. He comes here saturday morning and i can't wait. Well that's all for now, I think that's the most i've ever written in here lol. Well so long.