what the fuck is MEANT to be?
These past few weeks can be defined in only one way, simply: "what the fuck?"
I seem to curse a lot more lately. I need to stop. High school is over. I miss it. Do i miss it? No. I miss it's people. But i see it's people. So what do i miss? i have no friggin clue. hence my confusion. Maybe i just need a healthy dose of college. yes, i need a healthy dose of college.
My mother was sick for mothers day. Irony? yes.
I guess i got so used to having fun after thursday night, my last two days have been downers. I hate not having fun. Im getting a job. Maybe. Jesse Brown's is considering hiring me, but im up against 6 others, one of whom, margaret, is a 26 year old business woman who seems way more qualified than ill ever be. I need that job. Margaret has to go.
Others things in life havent been going that well either, and i would say im sorry for bitching about life on livejournal, but i mean who am i kidding, none of you are reading this for any other reason than to see some one else bitch about life. I love it, i do. But i cant figure out why i dont right now. I lack fulfillment. thats the answer. In daily life and in my relationship with God. Bad thing? yes. something i cant overcome? not at all.
"Hearken to me, ye that follow after righteousness, ye that seek the LORD: look unto the rock [whence] ye are hewn, and to the hole of the pit [whence] ye are digged." Isaiah 51:1
I seem to curse a lot more lately. I need to stop. High school is over. I miss it. Do i miss it? No. I miss it's people. But i see it's people. So what do i miss? i have no friggin clue. hence my confusion. Maybe i just need a healthy dose of college. yes, i need a healthy dose of college.
My mother was sick for mothers day. Irony? yes.
I guess i got so used to having fun after thursday night, my last two days have been downers. I hate not having fun. Im getting a job. Maybe. Jesse Brown's is considering hiring me, but im up against 6 others, one of whom, margaret, is a 26 year old business woman who seems way more qualified than ill ever be. I need that job. Margaret has to go.
Others things in life havent been going that well either, and i would say im sorry for bitching about life on livejournal, but i mean who am i kidding, none of you are reading this for any other reason than to see some one else bitch about life. I love it, i do. But i cant figure out why i dont right now. I lack fulfillment. thats the answer. In daily life and in my relationship with God. Bad thing? yes. something i cant overcome? not at all.
"Hearken to me, ye that follow after righteousness, ye that seek the LORD: look unto the rock [whence] ye are hewn, and to the hole of the pit [whence] ye are digged." Isaiah 51:1