Beauty is everything and shes got it
had a fucked up convo with ceara omg i love that girl i was helping her through shit and hoping to make her feel better and we were talking about just relationships and shit and then how much we love eachother and that led to the conclusion that its possible we still like eachother it was so funny and a really good convo i was gonna post it but i xed out by accident sucks major so her and i are gonna hang out tomorrow we need to let shit out and be eachothers crying shoulder and love suicides lol inside joke but we're gonna talk and catch up on things i miss her and we wicked need to hang out so uhm yeh i dunno i said i was sorry i ever let her go and shit confused her but then i was like remember wen we tried dating? I was at a point in my life where i was confused and shy and didnt know what i wanted and i still dont plus i didnt know her half as much as i do now but i said Losing you and letting you go was my biggest mistake But you were always my favorite mistake -truth- i dont feel bad for her cuz thats not what she wants or needs shes been fucked over by chick after chick and iv been there always for her to listen to her and help I always will be i promised id help her up wen she begins to fall,help her out of depression,and always be there for her ill stick to it till i die i cant bail on her She has no idea how much beauty she posess i made her cry good tears i told her " i love the salt in your tears and the grace you show throughout the years" and i said something about the beauty she posesses and the pain behind her tears and the secrets she holds inside i love it all it was straight from the heart<3 I hate to see her hurt so i tell her everything she needs to hear wether its harsh or not but importantly i tell her truth and i always tell her i love her and theres something waiting for her at the end of the road so she cant give up hope i help
Blew jon off yesterday and did so today
Being a really big bitch Confused about feelings
Might need to let go for a bit Need to fix myself before i can be in a relationship
I dont want to hurt him and im doing nothing but hurting him latly and god i must be confusing the kid but i cant help but confuse someone wen u cant think straight yourself ya know I do really like him and want to be with him maybe we need to take a quick break tho see how being just friends goes for a while Let me breathe and learn to get my self respect and stuff back
Tiki shit blew up in my face and havnt gotten it off my mind
Still need to have the talk with mom she said she feels bad because its horrible to lose it with an expiernce like i did and shit
uhm lost all self confidence and hate myself latly
i need to think and breathe and just start to love myself again before i can focus on him
i know he wont understand that hes a guy how could he
Freshman formal is next week(a week from tomorrow) im going with him no matter what
I dont want him to do something stupid over me
Why should he? he can get better then me anyway
So last night was 4/20
Smoked and had fun
Gabe(pimp pope),dave(pip),laura,kendra and justin were here
Kayleigh was here for a while and we talked i love her but she left
ben izzo was with kayleigh and laura they dropped her off and decided to stay and ben stayed the nite hes still here I thought he still hated me but hes been so nice nice kid take back everything iv ever said about him
dave,gabe,kendra,rob,laura,justin,jesus and i were stoned off our asses
Jesus left at like one am as usual hes a cool kid too had a bad trip the poor thing
uhm i dont remember much from last nite
was on the phone with krystina for a long ass time love my baby!
Xoxo
Confussed emo
this song explains everything
Sick Love Song by motley crue
Wake me up in the morning glory,
Hanging straight your lies and stories.
How do you mark your territory?
When your trash becomes your treasure,
Your remorse is all my pleasure.
Lose your mind at your leisure.
Simply said your complicated,
Understand you're overrated.
The more you talk the less you seem to say.
We are miserable,
You are driving me insane
This could be your,
Sick love song.
This could be your
Sign that things are going wrong.
This could be your
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Chew me up like a meat grinder,
Your cold-blooded like a side-winder,
I don't need another reminder.
Can't understand normal thinking,
Drive a sober man to drinking.
Infact you drive me straight to Hell.
We are miserable,
You are driving me insane.
This could be your,
Sick love song
This could be your
Sign that things are going wrong.
This could be your
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
The more you inhale,
The more that you breath,
The more that you make me wanna scream.
This could be your,
Sick love song.This could be your
Sign that things are going wrong.
This could be your
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
This could be your,
Sick love song.
This could be your
Reason not to get along.
This could be your
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song.
Sick love song...
I wont see you tonite part 1 by avenged sevenfold
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and (loved) most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me or cry while I'm away
It all built up, inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame
As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight
So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
part 2
Come back to me, this is unconceivable
Breaking apart the ones you love
Hate runs deep for what you've done to us
Left alone through suicide...suicide
I just want to die, take away my life
lay by your side, please
Look at my face you pierce with a blank stare
No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend.
He's gone. Nothing will take back time.
I need him back, but nothing will take back time.
(take back time)
I can see just fine, you in my life,
there by my side as it starts to fade
I know this can't be right, stuck in a dream
a nightmare full of sorrow
Nightmare - full of pain
I look back and see the twisted road
Best friends and despair took its toll
Take away
You can't be replaced
I'm left alone with you
in spirit and the words
you wrote to me
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me, I cared for
and most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me
or cry while I'm away
i oviously played around with live journal today and discovered how to make my journal entrys pretty
oh and read my gj it was really kinda funny come to think of it http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/xforgotten_onex/