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can someone say what the fuck?
okay, i dunno, i really like dustin, okay. i do i do. But.. today i could have sworn that i heard him call someone else "babe" . and if hes going out with me.. he better not fucking do that. Im not even kidding. That made me mad. And then the fact that i called him like 8 times tonight, and the first time he oculdnt talk cuz of his homework, then i just called him back and hes like at a bar. Which is okay, seeing as hes 18 but i dont fucking agree with that. I dunno maybe im gonna get my period soon or osmething, but like, i really dont like this.i was almost in tears because I dont know if he is cheating on me or not.i know that sounds stupid but i got this feeling like that today. Like, hes really obsessed with me, but then i heard him call someone else babe today, and that just really made me doubt it. Like maybe hes pretending to be like much in like with me because hes seeing other ppl to?i know that sounds stupid but im very emotional today and i almost cried. Like.. i had tears in my eyes because i wanted to talk to him but.. no. hes at a bar. And then he complains about his work load and how tired he is. If he wouldnt do the shit that hes involved in, hed be normal, and rested like the rest of us. And wouldnt have so much work to catch up on.I dont get why im so upset about this. Its really just bothering me. Maybe its close to my period of seomthing. But now i want to talk to him but i dont. I want to go to school tomorrow and ignore him and make him feel bad. Im SUCH a terrible person. I know, but like.. fuck. He told me that i should phone him before i went out , if i did, tonight, and hten he fuckin goes out and doesnt call me. What the hell.Im so mad. If i dont have a reason to be mad, well fine, see it that way. But ugh. and also the fact that hes 18 also makes me scared that hes using me. And everyone always tells me that and maybe its just getting to my head, but like FUCK . what if its true? What if hes fooling around with chicks that will actually fuck him? Because hes more than aware that i wont fuck him, unless we;ve been goin out for liek a year... ugh. SO now im just...............argh. I dunno. And the whole thing with robbie........i just.....idunno. u know what. watever. i;ll let him fuck around if thats what he wants to do. i might as well take it!
fucking hell.
okay, i dunno, i really like dustin, okay. i do i do. But.. today i could have sworn that i heard him call someone else "babe" . and if hes going out with me.. he better not fucking do that. Im not even kidding. That made me mad. And then the fact that i called him like 8 times tonight, and the first time he oculdnt talk cuz of his homework, then i just called him back and hes like at a bar. Which is okay, seeing as hes 18 but i dont fucking agree with that. I dunno maybe im gonna get my period soon or osmething, but like, i really dont like this.i was almost in tears because I dont know if he is cheating on me or not.i know that sounds stupid but i got this feeling like that today. Like, hes really obsessed with me, but then i heard him call someone else babe today, and that just really made me doubt it. Like maybe hes pretending to be like much in like with me because hes seeing other ppl to?i know that sounds stupid but im very emotional today and i almost cried. Like.. i had tears in my eyes because i wanted to talk to him but.. no. hes at a bar. And then he complains about his work load and how tired he is. If he wouldnt do the shit that hes involved in, hed be normal, and rested like the rest of us. And wouldnt have so much work to catch up on.I dont get why im so upset about this. Its really just bothering me. Maybe its close to my period of seomthing. But now i want to talk to him but i dont. I want to go to school tomorrow and ignore him and make him feel bad. Im SUCH a terrible person. I know, but like.. fuck. He told me that i should phone him before i went out , if i did, tonight, and hten he fuckin goes out and doesnt call me. What the hell.Im so mad. If i dont have a reason to be mad, well fine, see it that way. But ugh. and also the fact that hes 18 also makes me scared that hes using me. And everyone always tells me that and maybe its just getting to my head, but like FUCK . what if its true? What if hes fooling around with chicks that will actually fuck him? Because hes more than aware that i wont fuck him, unless we;ve been goin out for liek a year... ugh. SO now im just...............argh. I dunno. And the whole thing with robbie........i just.....idunno. u know what. watever. i;ll let him fuck around if thats what he wants to do. i might as well take it!
fucking hell.