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Why is it that when you go away for the day to have fun with friends you come home to nothing but discontent and
frustration? Im leaving for college next saturday and my mom descides to start going in my room, going through all my shit and throwing half of it away which half that i want for scrapbooking and such. Ive been out for the past few days and i guess when im not home thats when she does it. Shes done it once when i was home but i was busy scrapbooking with Stephy. For those of you who know me you know that i cant stand it when people go through my shit. Im not going in my moms room and thorwing out all her little HGTV shit so why is she going through throwing away my papers and shit? I come home the other night, my mom and me fight about whether or not i can help Steph watch Evelyn today (which i did and it was soo much fun) because supposviely i had so much to do with going threw papers that i have (you see when i get magazines, when im done reading them i like to go through and rip out the pages taht i like and hang them on my wall to make a big college) and i walked into my room to find it pratically bare. my shit had been moved out and i felt like i owned nothing and that i didnt even have a room anymore. nothing but the scrap pieces of paper that i cut up to make colleges with but i guess thats all i am to her arent i? nothing but scrap pieces of paper she can just put at the bottom of a pile to ignore for as long as she wants. To view at a time you havent planned only to forget at a time that will be soon forgotten. Jesus, dont get me started on the neighborhood kids. Benjamin has been nothing but a cocky bastard to me latly. Today when i saw him he was ok but i guess its jsut cuz we only talked for a sec. Can someone please help me understand people. Im not going to mention any names but i think a few might know who im talking about. I mean you told me that you wouldnt date her becasue you said that youve known her as long as youve known me and itd be like dating me but then i find out you wanna date her? I mean shit, i dont wanna date you. Id rather throw myself in front of a moving bus and hope it hits me but your my friend and im not trying to sound jelous if i do cuz im not. Honestly, i dont care, its your life, do what you will but dont tell me one thing then go do another. im tired of that game. i havent seen or talked to you in what 2 weeks and now you wanna hang out this weekend? but we all know its becasue my mom told you to cuz im leaving for college and my cousin that you think your gunna sleep with but your not gunna touch her is comming up soon. Feeling used? You dont know the meaning to them. Im venting I know and im sorry but how would you feel if you were being used? My mom says she knows but she doesnt. Shes not here. Shes never here and when she is here we fight. I wish i had Tempy, I could go for a long late night drive.
frustration? Im leaving for college next saturday and my mom descides to start going in my room, going through all my shit and throwing half of it away which half that i want for scrapbooking and such. Ive been out for the past few days and i guess when im not home thats when she does it. Shes done it once when i was home but i was busy scrapbooking with Stephy. For those of you who know me you know that i cant stand it when people go through my shit. Im not going in my moms room and thorwing out all her little HGTV shit so why is she going through throwing away my papers and shit? I come home the other night, my mom and me fight about whether or not i can help Steph watch Evelyn today (which i did and it was soo much fun) because supposviely i had so much to do with going threw papers that i have (you see when i get magazines, when im done reading them i like to go through and rip out the pages taht i like and hang them on my wall to make a big college) and i walked into my room to find it pratically bare. my shit had been moved out and i felt like i owned nothing and that i didnt even have a room anymore. nothing but the scrap pieces of paper that i cut up to make colleges with but i guess thats all i am to her arent i? nothing but scrap pieces of paper she can just put at the bottom of a pile to ignore for as long as she wants. To view at a time you havent planned only to forget at a time that will be soon forgotten. Jesus, dont get me started on the neighborhood kids. Benjamin has been nothing but a cocky bastard to me latly. Today when i saw him he was ok but i guess its jsut cuz we only talked for a sec. Can someone please help me understand people. Im not going to mention any names but i think a few might know who im talking about. I mean you told me that you wouldnt date her becasue you said that youve known her as long as youve known me and itd be like dating me but then i find out you wanna date her? I mean shit, i dont wanna date you. Id rather throw myself in front of a moving bus and hope it hits me but your my friend and im not trying to sound jelous if i do cuz im not. Honestly, i dont care, its your life, do what you will but dont tell me one thing then go do another. im tired of that game. i havent seen or talked to you in what 2 weeks and now you wanna hang out this weekend? but we all know its becasue my mom told you to cuz im leaving for college and my cousin that you think your gunna sleep with but your not gunna touch her is comming up soon. Feeling used? You dont know the meaning to them. Im venting I know and im sorry but how would you feel if you were being used? My mom says she knows but she doesnt. Shes not here. Shes never here and when she is here we fight. I wish i had Tempy, I could go for a long late night drive.