fffffuck

[xforeverxafter]

i hhhhhhhhhhhhate boys. so much.
i wish i wasn't so... un-shy.
because then i would've never met these kids.
and i wouldn't have anything to be pissed over.
and i wouldn't have anything to look up to.
i guess that's a good thing about it... but if i wasn't pissed about this stuff so much, i wouldn't need anything to look up to.

i hate that i'm being like... locked up in my own house not allowed to do anything. this fucking sucks ass horribly, you have no idea.

i need to get out.
i need to be with someone who cares.
there's someone that cares, but i don't want to be with him.
i'm flipping out here, and i can;t stop..

but does anyone know what school colors black and red are?! or at least their letter jackets. i neeeeeeed to know