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can things seem to get any worse right now god?
my dads funeral is going to be on august forth, my b-day. yea, so thats going to be a day for me right there. im trying to not break down right now, i think ill save that for the funeral. i dont know what else to say right now, cause everytime i think about it ill start crying. even though crying wont bring my dad back to me, it saves me from somethings.
i hate to even be typing right now, but i am. i just wish god would not have taken my dad before he could see me turn 18. i wish i could of look him in the eye,held his hand and told him that i love him more than anything on this earth. regardless of all our fights and curse words said and things that were done! because you cant keep dwelling on the past. but if i could take my dads place right now i would, but then again i know my dad wouldn't want that to happen. i want to say hes in a better place but im not. cause its true, but i just wish i was alot older and that those words being said, i could take them in alot easier.
i just feel like vanishing for, the rest of my life. i just............i feel like i lost my best friend. i know i will never recover, cause its hard right now to except the fact that my dads gone. i should just let go, of everything. but i cant do that cause i know there are things that still need to be done.
-brandi jonea arae bryant
my dads funeral is going to be on august forth, my b-day. yea, so thats going to be a day for me right there. im trying to not break down right now, i think ill save that for the funeral. i dont know what else to say right now, cause everytime i think about it ill start crying. even though crying wont bring my dad back to me, it saves me from somethings.
i hate to even be typing right now, but i am. i just wish god would not have taken my dad before he could see me turn 18. i wish i could of look him in the eye,held his hand and told him that i love him more than anything on this earth. regardless of all our fights and curse words said and things that were done! because you cant keep dwelling on the past. but if i could take my dads place right now i would, but then again i know my dad wouldn't want that to happen. i want to say hes in a better place but im not. cause its true, but i just wish i was alot older and that those words being said, i could take them in alot easier.
i just feel like vanishing for, the rest of my life. i just............i feel like i lost my best friend. i know i will never recover, cause its hard right now to except the fact that my dads gone. i should just let go, of everything. but i cant do that cause i know there are things that still need to be done.
-brandi jonea arae bryant