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so angry...
just wanna grab somebody by the throat and squeeze....yeah...just like that one time...long ago...
anyway. why am i so angry today? my jaw is clenched tight...giving me a headache. bothered by laughter. can't stop coughing. hands and feel are cold. want to go to the gym. want to write something down.
damnit. i know what it is. i've overloaded myself. i have given myself too many personal commitments to maintain. i'm feeling stressed by this. but it's like an addiction...i need more. like i'm micro-managing the world. or at least my little world. call you later. call me later. see you later. see me later. what you doing later. what am i doing later. who you doing later. who am i doing later. questions are neverending. and when you have too many "personal commitments" you really tie yourself down.
so angry. so angry. just need to delete numbers from my phone. and never answer unidentified numbers. never works that way though. always delete. then answer. then they get angry cause i didn't know who they were. then i have to go through that drama. when does it end? where do i cut it off"?
so angry.
just give me a throat...
just wanna grab somebody by the throat and squeeze....yeah...just like that one time...long ago...
anyway. why am i so angry today? my jaw is clenched tight...giving me a headache. bothered by laughter. can't stop coughing. hands and feel are cold. want to go to the gym. want to write something down.
damnit. i know what it is. i've overloaded myself. i have given myself too many personal commitments to maintain. i'm feeling stressed by this. but it's like an addiction...i need more. like i'm micro-managing the world. or at least my little world. call you later. call me later. see you later. see me later. what you doing later. what am i doing later. who you doing later. who am i doing later. questions are neverending. and when you have too many "personal commitments" you really tie yourself down.
so angry. so angry. just need to delete numbers from my phone. and never answer unidentified numbers. never works that way though. always delete. then answer. then they get angry cause i didn't know who they were. then i have to go through that drama. when does it end? where do i cut it off"?
so angry.
just give me a throat...