I love you all...
Okay so i got this comment yesterday-
Furyboy14 (9:52:18 PM): tonight u have reminded me of the old brittany..........
Whats that supposed to mean?!
Is there an old brittany?! Have i changed?!
The last couple of days i've been thinking so much about all this stuff......
THIS IS WHAT I CAME UP WITH....
Sometimes it's hard to admit to yourself that you've changed. I dunno i hate change, but now that i think bout it...It's not just the people around me, i've changed. Not in a bad way or anything, but you have to adapt to whats around you now. I mean w/ everything that happened all senior year i was forced to change. Honestly...Not that all change is in a bad way, but have i changed back to how i was?
The girl who didn't worry about life so much?! and just let everything fall into place?! The girl who wanted to get through the week, just to hang out and share time with friends. The girl who looked forward to getting up every day w/a smile on her face b/c she knew that someone cared way much, and that this life was only temporary?!
This past year i think i've taken on so many worries of my family, i could never let go, and just smile. I faked a lotta happiness, and realized that i was being so stupid. I am the same person who i was a year ago, just with a lot more strength. I wasnt exactly sure how to let go of some things, and instead i hurt some people that i cared deeply about. To those people i pushed away, i'm sorry!
Levi totally reminded me of something the other day
Subjusurandopuer (2:22:51 PM): want to know me and jeffs new philosphy
Subjusurandopuer (2:23:01 PM): it hasnt beenb tested in our lives yet it is true
Subjusurandopuer (2:23:15 PM): but we dont know if we can follow it when it gets hard
Subjusurandopuer (2:23:50 PM): its that god has planned for everything to happen even the bad stuff and if god planned it to happen it cant be bad
motherboardlvr (2:24:00 PM): yeah...
motherboardlvr (2:24:03 PM): cuz your gonna learn from it
Subjusurandopuer (2:24:13 PM): not that we shouldnt try to change stuff but what happens happens
so just a few encouragements!!!:) i got these from dom!!!
You say, "It's impossible".
God says: "All thing are possible". (Luke 18:27)
You say, "I'm too tired."
God says: "I will give you rest". (Matt 11:28-20)
You say, "Nobody really loves me".
God says: "I love you". (John 3:16 - John 13:34)
You say, "I can't go on."
God says: "My grace is sufficient." (II Cor. 12:9 - Psalm 91:15)
You say, "I can't figure things out."
God says: "I will direct your steps." (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say, "I can't do it."
God says: "You can do all things." (Phil 4:13)
You say, "It's not worth it."
God says: "It will be worth it." (Romans 8:28)
You say, "I can't forgive myself."
God says: "I forgive you." (I John 1:9 - Romans 8:1)
You say, "I can't manage."
God says: "I will supply all your needs." (Phil 4:19)
You say, "I'm afraid."
God says: "I have not given you a spirit of fear." (II Tim. 1:7)
You say, "I'm always worried and frustrated".
God says: "Cast all your cares on Me (I Peter 5:7)
You say, "I don't have enough faith."
God says: "I've given everyone a measure of faith." (Romans 12:3)
You say, "I'm not smart enough."
God says: "I give you wisdom." (I Cor. 1:30)
You say, "I feel all alone."
God says: "I will never leave you or forsake you." (Heb. 13:15)
I also have some things to share w/ a few people that have seen the wrath of Britt;)
you guys know who you are.....ahhaa:)
Person #1**This year has been so tough for us both...w/out our dads. I have seen such a strength in you that i admire so much. Yes at one point i pushed you away, but i was so dumb. But when we figured things out, God totally worked through us, and our relationship grew closer and closer...You are my one of thee greatest blessings in my life, and i will always remember the kindness u've shown me. Thanks for the hyper times, and being stupid
Person #2 Ya so u've seen a lotta change...and YESSSSSSSSSSS THINGS GOT SO MESSED UP!!! and i was hurting a lot...but one thing will never change...And that was the bond in friendship we shared. You totally caught me when i was falling, and made sure you were by my side. You made my mom love you, and you took on my worries...sometimes it's difficult to understand why things change...I guess it's a way of life. I'm sorry for a lotta things that have happened recently. You have been sucha strong hold in a lotta things, and totally understood my family. Tahnks for the times, the memories...and just being in my life....Thanks for the hugs...the trips...the smiles...the laughs..the prayers..and the Mbc! and always remember that God is in control, things will happen in His time if they are meant!
Person #3 We became super close way easily, and then somethings happened, and now we aren't. I'm sorry for that. I shouldn't have let that happened. I hope you take my apology, and we can go back to the closeness we were. I know that it will be difficult, but hey...anything can happen!!! right........ boy
So yeah....:) there ya go...:) I'm so glad i have friends to help me realize some things:) i love you all!!!! don't get me wrong...i didnt fake happiness a lot, i just had a lotta worries always on my mind, and i am letting go, and letting God.
Furyboy14 (9:52:18 PM): tonight u have reminded me of the old brittany..........
Whats that supposed to mean?!
Is there an old brittany?! Have i changed?!
The last couple of days i've been thinking so much about all this stuff......
THIS IS WHAT I CAME UP WITH....
Sometimes it's hard to admit to yourself that you've changed. I dunno i hate change, but now that i think bout it...It's not just the people around me, i've changed. Not in a bad way or anything, but you have to adapt to whats around you now. I mean w/ everything that happened all senior year i was forced to change. Honestly...Not that all change is in a bad way, but have i changed back to how i was?
The girl who didn't worry about life so much?! and just let everything fall into place?! The girl who wanted to get through the week, just to hang out and share time with friends. The girl who looked forward to getting up every day w/a smile on her face b/c she knew that someone cared way much, and that this life was only temporary?!
This past year i think i've taken on so many worries of my family, i could never let go, and just smile. I faked a lotta happiness, and realized that i was being so stupid. I am the same person who i was a year ago, just with a lot more strength. I wasnt exactly sure how to let go of some things, and instead i hurt some people that i cared deeply about. To those people i pushed away, i'm sorry!
Levi totally reminded me of something the other day
Subjusurandopuer (2:22:51 PM): want to know me and jeffs new philosphy
Subjusurandopuer (2:23:01 PM): it hasnt beenb tested in our lives yet it is true
Subjusurandopuer (2:23:15 PM): but we dont know if we can follow it when it gets hard
Subjusurandopuer (2:23:50 PM): its that god has planned for everything to happen even the bad stuff and if god planned it to happen it cant be bad
motherboardlvr (2:24:00 PM): yeah...
motherboardlvr (2:24:03 PM): cuz your gonna learn from it
Subjusurandopuer (2:24:13 PM): not that we shouldnt try to change stuff but what happens happens
so just a few encouragements!!!:) i got these from dom!!!
You say, "It's impossible".
God says: "All thing are possible". (Luke 18:27)
You say, "I'm too tired."
God says: "I will give you rest". (Matt 11:28-20)
You say, "Nobody really loves me".
God says: "I love you". (John 3:16 - John 13:34)
You say, "I can't go on."
God says: "My grace is sufficient." (II Cor. 12:9 - Psalm 91:15)
You say, "I can't figure things out."
God says: "I will direct your steps." (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say, "I can't do it."
God says: "You can do all things." (Phil 4:13)
You say, "It's not worth it."
God says: "It will be worth it." (Romans 8:28)
You say, "I can't forgive myself."
God says: "I forgive you." (I John 1:9 - Romans 8:1)
You say, "I can't manage."
God says: "I will supply all your needs." (Phil 4:19)
You say, "I'm afraid."
God says: "I have not given you a spirit of fear." (II Tim. 1:7)
You say, "I'm always worried and frustrated".
God says: "Cast all your cares on Me (I Peter 5:7)
You say, "I don't have enough faith."
God says: "I've given everyone a measure of faith." (Romans 12:3)
You say, "I'm not smart enough."
God says: "I give you wisdom." (I Cor. 1:30)
You say, "I feel all alone."
God says: "I will never leave you or forsake you." (Heb. 13:15)
I also have some things to share w/ a few people that have seen the wrath of Britt;)
you guys know who you are.....ahhaa:)
Person #1**This year has been so tough for us both...w/out our dads. I have seen such a strength in you that i admire so much. Yes at one point i pushed you away, but i was so dumb. But when we figured things out, God totally worked through us, and our relationship grew closer and closer...You are my one of thee greatest blessings in my life, and i will always remember the kindness u've shown me. Thanks for the hyper times, and being stupid
Person #2 Ya so u've seen a lotta change...and YESSSSSSSSSSS THINGS GOT SO MESSED UP!!! and i was hurting a lot...but one thing will never change...And that was the bond in friendship we shared. You totally caught me when i was falling, and made sure you were by my side. You made my mom love you, and you took on my worries...sometimes it's difficult to understand why things change...I guess it's a way of life. I'm sorry for a lotta things that have happened recently. You have been sucha strong hold in a lotta things, and totally understood my family. Tahnks for the times, the memories...and just being in my life....Thanks for the hugs...the trips...the smiles...the laughs..the prayers..and the Mbc! and always remember that God is in control, things will happen in His time if they are meant!
Person #3 We became super close way easily, and then somethings happened, and now we aren't. I'm sorry for that. I shouldn't have let that happened. I hope you take my apology, and we can go back to the closeness we were. I know that it will be difficult, but hey...anything can happen!!! right........ boy
So yeah....:) there ya go...:) I'm so glad i have friends to help me realize some things:) i love you all!!!! don't get me wrong...i didnt fake happiness a lot, i just had a lotta worries always on my mind, and i am letting go, and letting God.