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Eh...I've been thinking.....Everything is changing. And if you know me, i'm not one for change....I've gone through enough in 2003 to last me a lifetime, none the less it's all happening...
Apparently Steven informed me today that Jason's leaving the church. Everyone really needs to pray for FFB It's falling apart! Everything steven said about that got me thinking..... I dunno. this year has been full of me losing close people....I can like name a lot.....My dad leaving.. losing my best friend/boyfriend mitch....adam....jason, when we were close, and there have been some more lil things here and there. I'm really down lately, and i dunno why. I guess cuz i realize i totally have to let go. Garrett called me last night, and lectured me. It's the first time that he's ever YELLED at me. But i know it was needed. I need to let go of somethings. I'm trying, i'm just not the best at it. I know to follow God completely, but sometimes i try to follow my will, and i know thats wrong. I shouldnt even wanna follow my wants...eh... I hope i can go to fold tonight, cuz i need it! REally bad. I just need fellowship. MY mom and i have had like the worst week relationship wise ever. We are fighting about everything... Or shall i say she's fighting about everything...she's making some really irrational decsions and i feel like i'm the older one. I dunno...It's hard though....
yesterday i watched how 2 deal twice, and i'm watching it right now. I love that movie, although it brings back memories....But it's sooo cute, i can't help it.....
Please keep me in your prayers.....
i love you all
xoxoxo
Brittz
Apparently Steven informed me today that Jason's leaving the church. Everyone really needs to pray for FFB It's falling apart! Everything steven said about that got me thinking..... I dunno. this year has been full of me losing close people....I can like name a lot.....My dad leaving.. losing my best friend/boyfriend mitch....adam....jason, when we were close, and there have been some more lil things here and there. I'm really down lately, and i dunno why. I guess cuz i realize i totally have to let go. Garrett called me last night, and lectured me. It's the first time that he's ever YELLED at me. But i know it was needed. I need to let go of somethings. I'm trying, i'm just not the best at it. I know to follow God completely, but sometimes i try to follow my will, and i know thats wrong. I shouldnt even wanna follow my wants...eh... I hope i can go to fold tonight, cuz i need it! REally bad. I just need fellowship. MY mom and i have had like the worst week relationship wise ever. We are fighting about everything... Or shall i say she's fighting about everything...she's making some really irrational decsions and i feel like i'm the older one. I dunno...It's hard though....
yesterday i watched how 2 deal twice, and i'm watching it right now. I love that movie, although it brings back memories....But it's sooo cute, i can't help it.....
Please keep me in your prayers.....
i love you all
xoxoxo
Brittz