"I used to"

[xflying_leaves]

I used to think I wasn’t meant to be for this world.,

It seemed like everything and everyone was leaving me and hating me.

I used to smile when I remembered your body next to mine,

We were melting together as one.

I used to cry when I thought about everything happened in the past,

Now my eyes are empty, no more tears left to spill.

I used to say how much you meant to me,

Now I can’t get the words out anymore.

I used to be like someone else wanted me to be,

Now I’m who I want to be.

I used to dream of our feature, together with you,

It seemed like we would be together forever.

I used to laugh when I heard something funny,

Now I’ve lost my smile, can’t laugh like I used to anymore.

I used to think of anybody I loved,

Now there just a few people to think about left.

I used to smile when I heard the birds singing their songs,

Now it doesn’t mean much to me anymore.

I used to cry when I thought about you,

Leaving me so sudden I couldn’t even say goodbye.

I used to say what I was dreaming of,

Now I’ve lost most of my dreams.

I used to be a happy person,

Now I’m only pretending.

I used to dream a dream,

But now there are only nightmares.

I used to laugh when I saw your smile,

Now your smile isn’t here anymore.