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I am in a GREAT MOOD today! I don't even get why! I think its cuz xmas is coming and my bday:)...I love xmas eve...its always so nice! Work..everyones all cheerful and its like yes and then family fun stuff all night!!!! HEHE then go to bed and Santy comes and wake up and its xmas time! Church and cinnabons and presents galore!!!....Yesterday at work Sara was talking to me about boys(its sara lol shes a pimp) and she asked me about Ton...it was weird cuz she was there when a lot of the shit went down last year with some blatantly wrong text messages were sent to me by tons friend...She helped me feel better and watched me deal with alot of this shit and we honestly have not talked about any of it since the summer time....She asked if me and ton planned on getting back together and asked if we eventually planned on gettting married and all this stuff and I felt real weird discussing it. I mean I gave her vague answers cuz thats basically how Ive been lately...vague with everything...the don't ask don't tell method? Nah not even that...then she asked if I had someone to share xmas with and I said my family...friends...lol HOL KAIT!! haha and she smiled and said that it was so not like me cuz I always had somebody and it made me realize that the last six months have really been the longest I have gone without an official boyfriend in awhile....and Its not like Ive been with anybody reallly like hookup with besides ton....well I mean there were some but they werent anything like...well you know...and theres no one now. and You think it would make me sad? nah....really it doesnt...I mean it would probably make things easier if I moved on and found someone else like he did...But Im not going out looking for it...if it comes to me then it comes...eventually I know I will be alright...Even though right now he is the one that makes me smile and get all cutsy inside! haha...well a n y w a y s Journ is b0rRiNgg hehe yea my good mood is not going away though...my animal crackers for AP are so funny looking....they all look like lammas haha me and jenP are eating them now haha...well off to find something to do0o0o0o`~`Julio