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you know what i miss. i miss having real friends around that are there for you no matter what. i miss having people in my life that want to be around you just becuase your you. not becuase of what you have to offer then, or how cool you make them look or seem. i miss having people that will defend you no matter what. i miss going to the mall and shopping and eating lunch and just hanging out doing nothing in particular. but then again i dont miss any of that.... i now have a family and a son and husband and those are my 2 best friends ever. wierd. its funny how life changes so much in such short periods of time.
on another note kaiden is getting so big. ha. well to me it seems that way. to everyone else that does not see him daily he still looks like a tiny little baby. but he is not 8lbs and 9 onches. he has gained a little over a pound since he was born. he is the cutest thing ever. im not even kidding. i just stair at him for hours and watch him and its crazy, he does the most amazing things. its so increadable how much he seriously looks like mikey. i cant get over it. and the things he does and how he smiles and acts. but then again i see parts of myself in him too. his little hands are getting so big. ha. he lays in bed and holds my finger all night long. he cuddles with me all night long and we sleep in together too. its the best. to wake up on a rainy day with my little man snuggled up next to me holding my finger. words can not even explain it. i just lay there and smell him and kiss him and touch his soft perfect skin. aaawwww i wish everyone could see him... hes truely the best thing that has ever happened to my life besides mikey...you honestly never know what true love is until you look at your own child in the face every day and watch them smile back at you.
on another note kaiden is getting so big. ha. well to me it seems that way. to everyone else that does not see him daily he still looks like a tiny little baby. but he is not 8lbs and 9 onches. he has gained a little over a pound since he was born. he is the cutest thing ever. im not even kidding. i just stair at him for hours and watch him and its crazy, he does the most amazing things. its so increadable how much he seriously looks like mikey. i cant get over it. and the things he does and how he smiles and acts. but then again i see parts of myself in him too. his little hands are getting so big. ha. he lays in bed and holds my finger all night long. he cuddles with me all night long and we sleep in together too. its the best. to wake up on a rainy day with my little man snuggled up next to me holding my finger. words can not even explain it. i just lay there and smell him and kiss him and touch his soft perfect skin. aaawwww i wish everyone could see him... hes truely the best thing that has ever happened to my life besides mikey...you honestly never know what true love is until you look at your own child in the face every day and watch them smile back at you.