i feel like crying
nobody told me about cassies visitation.
i feel like shit cuz i wanted to go.
i should have kept better contacts w/ people and not shut so many of you out.
im very sorry and i hope that someday we can all be friends again.
however this is all sickly unlikely.
i know her funeral is today but i cant go. im working all day.
i cant get it off cuz i told them id help a long time ago and they have noone else to cover the shift.
thats why they asked me.
we're probably gonna be dead cuz the weather is so shitty.
i didnt wanna get up today.
i feel like i killed cassie.
though i know in my heart i did not.
i do not think she was meant for this world. not at this point and time. this was the only way to get her away from mario. that is my firm belief and i am sticking to it.
HOWEVER...
it does not fix the pain.
i realize i cant cry cuz of my meds.
nice and potent shit that it is
marys gramma died tuesday and her funeral is to day also. cant go to that either.
grandma markovitch was a wonderful woman she always asked how i was doing and she hated everyone at anthonys. she told us to get out of there long before i had.
she lit a lot of candles for me and baby at her church.
that is so touching to me.
i 99% guarantee you that my CATHOLIC family has not done that.
i have so many mixed emotions right now and i know it will get worse as more of you will die. i still love you though. keep in touch. im a nerd yet i never go on aim. so call me fuckers;
i feel like shit cuz i wanted to go.
i should have kept better contacts w/ people and not shut so many of you out.
im very sorry and i hope that someday we can all be friends again.
however this is all sickly unlikely.
i know her funeral is today but i cant go. im working all day.
i cant get it off cuz i told them id help a long time ago and they have noone else to cover the shift.
thats why they asked me.
we're probably gonna be dead cuz the weather is so shitty.
i didnt wanna get up today.
i feel like i killed cassie.
though i know in my heart i did not.
i do not think she was meant for this world. not at this point and time. this was the only way to get her away from mario. that is my firm belief and i am sticking to it.
HOWEVER...
it does not fix the pain.
i realize i cant cry cuz of my meds.
nice and potent shit that it is
marys gramma died tuesday and her funeral is to day also. cant go to that either.
grandma markovitch was a wonderful woman she always asked how i was doing and she hated everyone at anthonys. she told us to get out of there long before i had.
she lit a lot of candles for me and baby at her church.
that is so touching to me.
i 99% guarantee you that my CATHOLIC family has not done that.
i have so many mixed emotions right now and i know it will get worse as more of you will die. i still love you though. keep in touch. im a nerd yet i never go on aim. so call me fuckers;