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you have a nasty tendency t want what you can't have or shouldn't want. you'll be damned if this time isn't any different. this attraction, you're starting to realize, has been there for years and you only notice how apparent it is when and after he's around you. can everyone see how you stare, how you long for something that's absolutely impossible? there's no chance, no possibilty. they would laugh. everyone feels it, but not to the extreme you do. you can feel your face get hot any time you think about the stupid things you say around him. goddamn. if you only could for once go with something sure, then maybe you wouldn't feel so strange after all these years. but you have a nasty tendency to what what you can't have or shouldn't want and you'll be damned if this time isn't any different.