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I dont know whats going on lately. I'm not in a rut or anything. I'm happy at work. I actually like who i work with for the most part. I love my son. He is my heart, my love, my everything. i didn't know i could love anything as much as i love him. I love my paulie. He is amazing and we get along great. I love my in-laws. as weird as that sounds. Pauls mom is more a mom to me then my own. jamie and jarrett are amazing. and allie is finally opening up to me. i even have some friends up here that actually want to hang out with me.
but i don't know. i guess i do miss new york. i miss being able to see virgie pretty much whenever i want. i miss the fact that me and her could just drop everything and go to the beach. i miss going to the beach whenever i wanted. its my favorite place in the world. i do miss a lot of things. its just hard. i do love it up here a lot. its so beautiful. even when its snow-raining like it was today. i just dont know. i know how paul felt when he lived in rockland. i think i just need to visit and get my rockland fix. as odd as that sounds.
i am coming down on may 13th... aka mothers day. my first real mothers day. but seeing as my son is six months old i dont really expect anything. besides me makes me happy everyday. even when hes screaming at the top of his lungs because he fell down and hit his chin i think he is the cutest thing in the world.
i dont know maybe i'm just being insane and such be happy with what i have. many people dont have what i do. ignore me i'm just being self involved.
but i don't know. i guess i do miss new york. i miss being able to see virgie pretty much whenever i want. i miss the fact that me and her could just drop everything and go to the beach. i miss going to the beach whenever i wanted. its my favorite place in the world. i do miss a lot of things. its just hard. i do love it up here a lot. its so beautiful. even when its snow-raining like it was today. i just dont know. i know how paul felt when he lived in rockland. i think i just need to visit and get my rockland fix. as odd as that sounds.
i am coming down on may 13th... aka mothers day. my first real mothers day. but seeing as my son is six months old i dont really expect anything. besides me makes me happy everyday. even when hes screaming at the top of his lungs because he fell down and hit his chin i think he is the cutest thing in the world.
i dont know maybe i'm just being insane and such be happy with what i have. many people dont have what i do. ignore me i'm just being self involved.