Hey ross...
p.s. im so pessimistic sometimes, but in a good way
Ive been thinking lately, mostly about conversation. As i glance at different religions and lifestyles of other countries, mainly eastern, i notice many are very quiet, or reserved in speech. we could call this rude or impolite, but i am starting to see it as more of a better way of life. As many people engage in conversation, a good portion of it is actually telling stories of this, or telling what someone did and when. Explaining how bad or unlucky someone's life was recently. Generally, its just to inform someone of information about the speaker. Slowly, i have noticed that knowing the information ultimately does close to nothing for the listener. usually he/she is not interested the least bit and is probably formulating their own story while the speaker recites thier's, probably not for the first time. I could very easily be missing something, but in some cases i just dont see the point to have these kind of conversations. Useful conversation involves opinions, a debate, a point. Though same stories either make you laugh, effect you in some way, or attempt teaching you a lesson, many, if one notices are generally about nothing. As of right now, i almost feel as if im disliking a lot of the past tense. Why not tell someone something about the present tense? A tense that can be acted upon or appreciated, right here, right now. I realy dont know what im saying, im just writing off of my chest befdore i go to bed. I guess tonight ive just been thinking about it, it irratates me when people spend all of thier time wasting it. Ive seen it written somewhere that "one should constantly be aware of what he is doing and why. Evaluate your situation, and make you own decisions. Am i enjoying what i'm doing? Why am i doing this? Do i really feel like doing this is better than any other option in my immediate reach?" And for my last thought, why is it that people feel they must "do something" to have fun. you are already doing something when you get this thought, why not act immediately, if not, enjoy what you ARE doing and wait for "something" to come to you.
for all of you who read this, im aware its hypocritical, its just quick thoughts....dont take any of it to mean anything, though you probably wont read it.