Today I broke up with my girlfriend and best friend in the entire world. I'm afraid our friendship is ruined forever even though it shouldn't be. I think that had I been living on my own and not under the watchful eye of my parents I would have been able to accept myself more openly, but I'm stuck living at home with parents who ask too many questions about my sexuality. I'm afraid I made a mistake today. I'm afraid that I lost someone I care immensely about. I'm afraid I have a broken heart but I can't tell because I can't feel anything except stupidity. I wish there was a such thing as a time machine so I could go far back in time and start over. I wish I could just accept that if I am a lesbian or bi then I am and I can't change it. I wish I weren't afraid of God. I wish that somehow I could concentrate and not feel like I've made a mistake. I wish I could take 2 days to think about my decision like they told me to but I can't. Maybe I meant to break up with her but for selfish reasons I eep asing myself why yet for unselfish reasons I keep asking myself why because all i did was hurt her. s.s.
I'm curious why you chose to tell me all of this. I wish I could do something to help you and make you feel better. I have a feeling that a lot of this is up to you though. But if you want to talk further, just let me know. Send me a message on myspace or something.
Maybe I meant to break up with her but for selfish reasons I eep asing myself why yet for unselfish reasons I keep asking myself why because all i did was hurt her.
s.s.
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good luck girl. <333
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