I Hate life...So Fucking Much
There is only one thing in my life that I Love. Thats Josh. I don't know what I would do if it wasn't for him. He saves my life each day that I hear his voice. I'm moving out of my house. I might have to crash with people for a while. I hate my mom so much Josh and I went to see Coach Carter tonight. It was pretty good. I'd recommend it. But back to the mom thing, I think that I'm going to call my dad. Who I've never met, and move in with him. I hate my mom. I just told her that Josh was staying over and she was "NO!" and I was like, you were going to let him 2 nights ago. Why not tonight. She's such a fucking hypocryte. I hope that she gets hit by a bus and her head falls off. I'm so so so so so fucking wired right now...I want to just leave. In fact I think that I might leave tonight. Tina grounded me and I was like what the fuck is your point? You can ground me, but that's not gonna do a fucking thing. I'm not gonna fucking abide by your gay ass rules. So I think that I'm getting emancipated, then I'll move out. Fun fun...It's so nice sitting very still, in a room where no one else can feel the pain that breaks my heart each day...I'm not ok.