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Just got into that dress that Iv been trying to lose weight for ever since I gained so much weight (6 months). Took my mom and partner ages to zip me into it though aha. The half starving myself, gym, walking miles and insanity dvds finally paid off. Iv slimmed down and my bodies tightened up a fair bit. I'm proud of myself...
...But I'm not happy. I treated myself to more food for doing so well, like probably 2500-3000 cals today, so not even a 'binge' in my books but I feel so awful and depressed about it now. Fat ass. And even if I keep the weight off and lose more (I'm doing the sgd) I'll never be good enough. I cut a few times a week and take more pills (not tonnes but enough to sleep) than I should even frequenter than that. Hate myself! I'll get there in the end though. I hope?
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...But I'm not happy. I treated myself to more food for doing so well, like probably 2500-3000 cals today, so not even a 'binge' in my books but I feel so awful and depressed about it now. Fat ass. And even if I keep the weight off and lose more (I'm doing the sgd) I'll never be good enough. I cut a few times a week and take more pills (not tonnes but enough to sleep) than I should even frequenter than that. Hate myself! I'll get there in the end though. I hope?
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