i wish that i was anywhere... with anyone, making out.
yes things continue to be crappy.
some days are up.
but some days just are whatever.
what happened to evreything i once believed in.
what happened to the old days.
where i used to be happy.
not that im saying im not happy now.
im just not satisfied with life right now at this moment.
what you reap is what you soe.
someone i know should live by that quote.
Me and James broke up like 2 weeks ago?
maybe longer.
so did me and jay.
we got together for like 3 days.
and its already over.
not like it would have ever lasted.
I broke up with him because he was talkin shit on my freinds.
and well im sorry.
but i dont let anyone talk shit on my freinds.
so i told him it was over.
i was lookin through old pictures and videos from high school.
and i missed evreything about it.
i missed my freinds
my innoncence.
my life.
no matter how solitude it was.
i miss it.
i miss evreything about it.
it seems i was more happy back then.
than i am right now.
i mean now i am happy... only coz i have things i need materialistilly.
but back then i had more.
emotionally... and mentally.
i had loving caring freinds.
and we had funnnnnnnnnnnnn!!
funnnnn like none other.
we had the innocent fun.
or we were wreaking havoc anywhere we went.
but it was still innocent fun.
sometimes i miss who i once was back in high school.
but only because she was innocent.
and caring.
sometimes i look at myself now.
and i dont know who i am.
sounds like a fake made up story?
or too dramatized?
naw.
its just what im thinking.
im just so tired.
of being alone.
even when i have freinds.
im alone.
its such a shame... to even say i have freinds.
and look for them.
and half of the time.
there not even there.
some days are up.
but some days just are whatever.
what happened to evreything i once believed in.
what happened to the old days.
where i used to be happy.
not that im saying im not happy now.
im just not satisfied with life right now at this moment.
what you reap is what you soe.
someone i know should live by that quote.
Me and James broke up like 2 weeks ago?
maybe longer.
so did me and jay.
we got together for like 3 days.
and its already over.
not like it would have ever lasted.
I broke up with him because he was talkin shit on my freinds.
and well im sorry.
but i dont let anyone talk shit on my freinds.
so i told him it was over.
i was lookin through old pictures and videos from high school.
and i missed evreything about it.
i missed my freinds
my innoncence.
my life.
no matter how solitude it was.
i miss it.
i miss evreything about it.
it seems i was more happy back then.
than i am right now.
i mean now i am happy... only coz i have things i need materialistilly.
but back then i had more.
emotionally... and mentally.
i had loving caring freinds.
and we had funnnnnnnnnnnnn!!
funnnnn like none other.
we had the innocent fun.
or we were wreaking havoc anywhere we went.
but it was still innocent fun.
sometimes i miss who i once was back in high school.
but only because she was innocent.
and caring.
sometimes i look at myself now.
and i dont know who i am.
sounds like a fake made up story?
or too dramatized?
naw.
its just what im thinking.
im just so tired.
of being alone.
even when i have freinds.
im alone.
its such a shame... to even say i have freinds.
and look for them.
and half of the time.
there not even there.