your only the best i ever had.

[xfatally__yours]

today was alright i guess.
james came online today.
he said hes staying in kentucky for a few days.
and then hes out.
hes moving out here.
wooohooo.
im happy but then again... im not coz were hardly ever gonna be able to see one another.
unless i go and visit him.
still havent talked to him about that.
coz i could catch the train to go see him if i had to.. to just see him.
but anyways today we went to louies.
mike me and abigail.
and i know were going through alot.
but you just gotta chill sometimes.
and think about what really means the most to you in life.
i dont like fighting or people disliking me.
im just a big piece of shit.
i shouldnt be in any of there lives... coz apparently all i do is fuck it up for them evreytime.
i wasnt angry or mad.
i was just sick and abigail kept complaining that she wanted to go home.
so if you still hate me after all this.
go ahead.
i cant change whatever is going through your head.
but i do know one thing.
none of it was my fault.
i was sick.
tired.
and i wanted to go home.
coz i didnt feel well.
and i was trying to be nice.
but you were being mean.
who am i talking to?
just myself.
yepp.
thats all i go.