longest entry everrrrrrr
so tomorrow (thursday) was supposed to be the day of the big MOVE. but i guess were not moving on thursday anymore, because the guy whos painting the house said he needed an extra day. okay.
today was well...intresting. started out good..angela calls, we decide to go to Cabazon, i pick her up, and i pick aaron up and were on our way..then throughout the day little tiny things just ticked me off...really STUPID things. anyway...we walked around, checked out the stores..meh nothing too great. angela bought like a $89 Coach hat, which was on sale for like $50..which is not too bad really. it looked good on me haha but ofcourse i dont have that kinda money. anyway, on the way home...i was already kinda BLEH, and it didnt help when aaron kept critisizing my driving, and questioning my driving skills. it kinda just made me angry, on top of everything else. so we were officially MAD at eachother. oh and for what? NOTHING. so i take angela home..and then we decide to go to Ralphs and pick up things for our picnic that i planned like three days ago...it didnt go as we planned, i didnt have time to bake my cookies and brownies so we just bought some pre-made ones at the store, oh and some honey ham. we went to his house, made the sandwiches, got the soda and got everything ready. we decide to watch tv for a bit...hillary duff comes on, long story short, another lil argument. whatever, we then leave for the picnic...um first park we went to. SUCKS. we didnt even unpack we just left, then we went to hidden springs park, it was nice at first except for the ants, but we could handle that. but then about half an hour later..all these kids show up...SOCCER PRACTICE? okayyyyyy. i get kinda bLAH again, we leave, go to Gateway...it was perfect there..calm, quiet, ALONE, no ants, just perfect. we were done eating though, so we just cuddled and what not. i guess by now, we were back in love. just as if nothing happened. and i honestly didnt feel like we even argued in the first place. just, AMAZING. yada yada yada, it got dark for a while and we decide to leave. oh but then, it was time for....DAA DUN DUNNNNNNNNNN aaron's first ever legal CIGAR!! we had bought it earlier at Cabazon, it looked cool haha. i licked the actual leaf that its wrapped in, it tasted sweet lol, i thought it would be good. anyway, 10 matches later, we finally get it lit, and its the big moment. SMOOOOOOOOOOOKING it. meh i tried it a tiny itty bit, it was SICK. it kinda reminded me of my dad, just the smell of ciggaretts/cigars...i dunno i got kinda sad i dunno why. anyway aaron smokes it till about halfway then he decides hes done, it wasnt that great, we put it out and then leave...quiet drive home, kinda. but we were not mad anymore. a good day it has been. a GOOD day. i kiss him goodnight, despite his breath from the cigar, and leave. nothing was really on my mind as i was driving home. i get home i eat a couple cookies, coz theyre just so good and watch a lil tv. thennn Aaron calls. for our nightly phonecall. i love it. we kinda recap the day, apologize for anything if needed and talk about the next day, either being excited or trying not to be too woried. and tonight...it definatly was NOT the first one. aaron reminded me of all the things i didnt want to think about, but who can blame him? hes going through the exact same thing, kinda. starts off that were not gonna see eachother as much since im moving farther away, but i mean its only like 25 mins. i dunno bleh. then he cant really help us move anymore coz on friday, he has school, then band practice, then show. hmm i dont even know if i can go to that anymore. then we talk about how we dont want eachother finding another person, and i KNOW for a fact that im NOT going to. i just cant. im IN love with this man, and icant leave him for any other, its just impossible, emotionally AND physically. im just like attached to who he is, his amazing personality, the way he smiles, the way he gets excited about things, the way he treats me, even the way we argue, its just.....NO body can ever replace him. but then ofcourse, there's SCHOOL which is starting tomorrow for him. hes worried, scared, and he is going to miss me not being there like before. and i can understand i would feel the same way in that situation. its hard, but i mean its only a few hours, he'll be outta there by 11 everyday and he has a whole entire day to see me! and work is not until 5 usually...so i can always visit him, and i can always visit him at school too.
anyways, there is way too much on my mind and this is by far the longest entry on this journal. i think im done for now.
I MISS HIM ALREADY.
today was well...intresting. started out good..angela calls, we decide to go to Cabazon, i pick her up, and i pick aaron up and were on our way..then throughout the day little tiny things just ticked me off...really STUPID things. anyway...we walked around, checked out the stores..meh nothing too great. angela bought like a $89 Coach hat, which was on sale for like $50..which is not too bad really. it looked good on me haha but ofcourse i dont have that kinda money. anyway, on the way home...i was already kinda BLEH, and it didnt help when aaron kept critisizing my driving, and questioning my driving skills. it kinda just made me angry, on top of everything else. so we were officially MAD at eachother. oh and for what? NOTHING. so i take angela home..and then we decide to go to Ralphs and pick up things for our picnic that i planned like three days ago...it didnt go as we planned, i didnt have time to bake my cookies and brownies so we just bought some pre-made ones at the store, oh and some honey ham. we went to his house, made the sandwiches, got the soda and got everything ready. we decide to watch tv for a bit...hillary duff comes on, long story short, another lil argument. whatever, we then leave for the picnic...um first park we went to. SUCKS. we didnt even unpack we just left, then we went to hidden springs park, it was nice at first except for the ants, but we could handle that. but then about half an hour later..all these kids show up...SOCCER PRACTICE? okayyyyyy. i get kinda bLAH again, we leave, go to Gateway...it was perfect there..calm, quiet, ALONE, no ants, just perfect. we were done eating though, so we just cuddled and what not. i guess by now, we were back in love. just as if nothing happened. and i honestly didnt feel like we even argued in the first place. just, AMAZING. yada yada yada, it got dark for a while and we decide to leave. oh but then, it was time for....DAA DUN DUNNNNNNNNNN aaron's first ever legal CIGAR!! we had bought it earlier at Cabazon, it looked cool haha. i licked the actual leaf that its wrapped in, it tasted sweet lol, i thought it would be good. anyway, 10 matches later, we finally get it lit, and its the big moment. SMOOOOOOOOOOOKING it. meh i tried it a tiny itty bit, it was SICK. it kinda reminded me of my dad, just the smell of ciggaretts/cigars...i dunno i got kinda sad i dunno why. anyway aaron smokes it till about halfway then he decides hes done, it wasnt that great, we put it out and then leave...quiet drive home, kinda. but we were not mad anymore. a good day it has been. a GOOD day. i kiss him goodnight, despite his breath from the cigar, and leave. nothing was really on my mind as i was driving home. i get home i eat a couple cookies, coz theyre just so good and watch a lil tv. thennn Aaron calls. for our nightly phonecall. i love it. we kinda recap the day, apologize for anything if needed and talk about the next day, either being excited or trying not to be too woried. and tonight...it definatly was NOT the first one. aaron reminded me of all the things i didnt want to think about, but who can blame him? hes going through the exact same thing, kinda. starts off that were not gonna see eachother as much since im moving farther away, but i mean its only like 25 mins. i dunno bleh. then he cant really help us move anymore coz on friday, he has school, then band practice, then show. hmm i dont even know if i can go to that anymore. then we talk about how we dont want eachother finding another person, and i KNOW for a fact that im NOT going to. i just cant. im IN love with this man, and icant leave him for any other, its just impossible, emotionally AND physically. im just like attached to who he is, his amazing personality, the way he smiles, the way he gets excited about things, the way he treats me, even the way we argue, its just.....NO body can ever replace him. but then ofcourse, there's SCHOOL which is starting tomorrow for him. hes worried, scared, and he is going to miss me not being there like before. and i can understand i would feel the same way in that situation. its hard, but i mean its only a few hours, he'll be outta there by 11 everyday and he has a whole entire day to see me! and work is not until 5 usually...so i can always visit him, and i can always visit him at school too.
anyways, there is way too much on my mind and this is by far the longest entry on this journal. i think im done for now.
I MISS HIM ALREADY.