nothing really but suicide.........
yup, my life has been amazing lately. Ill give you a run down on what has happened.
1. Enlisted in the army.
2. Hanging out with Heather.
3. Seeing Rud and Brandy.
4. Hallowen (sp) well was fun, Fright at the Fort was pretty gay, except Brandy and Heather getting the shit scared out of them...pussys.
28. Paintball, a lot lately. I know its not the level or intesity of Jeremy or Tobin but its still feels good to get behind a marker.
32 1/2. Well been doing a lot of thinking lately. About my future and stuff. I look at myself and then to other teens my age. And well they have no clue what they are going to do when they get out. I mean yeah go to college and stuff but what after that? I dunno, Heather, my family, and my friends worry that im going to be hurt when or even if i get shipped over. But I reasure them, that if I can handle mentally and physically any of my Ex Girlfriends I will be perfectly fine in a war. I love my Heather and my friends. They seem to be the family that well has not shit out on me yet....that probably makes no sence. If your a friend you will get it.
Also I am very happy that Im making new friends, well not new but im getting closer to them, more then a random head nod in the hallways. But this worries me a bit. I mean Im not going to see any of them 20 years from now. I mea why should we as children or even teens have more then 4 close friends? I mean its even rarely that you will even see them as much as you see them now. I mean no one has the closness or even the trust as friends when your a kid/teen. Life is rough especially when you grow up. (note i really like Unearth....good mosh) Any hoo. I know that i wil have Heather, eddie and rudder. TO be honest thats all i need.
-xoxo
1. Enlisted in the army.
2. Hanging out with Heather.
3. Seeing Rud and Brandy.
4. Hallowen (sp) well was fun, Fright at the Fort was pretty gay, except Brandy and Heather getting the shit scared out of them...pussys.
28. Paintball, a lot lately. I know its not the level or intesity of Jeremy or Tobin but its still feels good to get behind a marker.
32 1/2. Well been doing a lot of thinking lately. About my future and stuff. I look at myself and then to other teens my age. And well they have no clue what they are going to do when they get out. I mean yeah go to college and stuff but what after that? I dunno, Heather, my family, and my friends worry that im going to be hurt when or even if i get shipped over. But I reasure them, that if I can handle mentally and physically any of my Ex Girlfriends I will be perfectly fine in a war. I love my Heather and my friends. They seem to be the family that well has not shit out on me yet....that probably makes no sence. If your a friend you will get it.
Also I am very happy that Im making new friends, well not new but im getting closer to them, more then a random head nod in the hallways. But this worries me a bit. I mean Im not going to see any of them 20 years from now. I mea why should we as children or even teens have more then 4 close friends? I mean its even rarely that you will even see them as much as you see them now. I mean no one has the closness or even the trust as friends when your a kid/teen. Life is rough especially when you grow up. (note i really like Unearth....good mosh) Any hoo. I know that i wil have Heather, eddie and rudder. TO be honest thats all i need.
-xoxo