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I am glad i have the few loved ones in my life. I have been in a wicked emotional mood lately. And i think it is affecting the relationship between Heather and I. But when i am with her she makes all my negative, worried thoughts leave me. And i feel relaxed when i am with my closest friends (eddie and rudder). Ive been hanging with Chad Gom lately, hes a wicked cool kid, and our friendship is getting better. The thing that bugs me, is my friends that i only see at shows i want to see more often. I dont think i should only see some people every two months we should hang out more. Im sort of scared Heather is losing intrest in me. I mean, i dont want to be her last relationship, i mean no offence im not here to piss any one off but i just want to be her best friend and her bf......is that a healthy idea??
I honestly think she is getting annoyed with me and my friends stupid habbits. Like she does not enjoy hanging with me or my friends anymore. I dont know what to do. I love her with all my heart and i will do anything in my power not to lose her. I have never let anyone touch me like the way she touches me, i haev never opened myself to anyone like the way i do with her. I know a lot of people have there parents divorced and such and what i am about to say everyone will tell me to shut it and get over it. But it seems my life is falling apart. I mean my parents are gone i mean there is no love between them, then there is financial shit that sucks in my family.....and i dunno my family is soo wrapped up into all different things that were not really a family anymore. I am def. not looking for fucking sympathy(sp) i hate that shit. But i just needed to get it off my chest. i just need to hold heather and hear her voice tell me that everythign is okay. BUT WOW this is wicked lame....i hate being soo emotional sometimes. yeah heather is going to be over anytime now.
ohh all i got to say is (dark day dawning) look them up......
I honestly think she is getting annoyed with me and my friends stupid habbits. Like she does not enjoy hanging with me or my friends anymore. I dont know what to do. I love her with all my heart and i will do anything in my power not to lose her. I have never let anyone touch me like the way she touches me, i haev never opened myself to anyone like the way i do with her. I know a lot of people have there parents divorced and such and what i am about to say everyone will tell me to shut it and get over it. But it seems my life is falling apart. I mean my parents are gone i mean there is no love between them, then there is financial shit that sucks in my family.....and i dunno my family is soo wrapped up into all different things that were not really a family anymore. I am def. not looking for fucking sympathy(sp) i hate that shit. But i just needed to get it off my chest. i just need to hold heather and hear her voice tell me that everythign is okay. BUT WOW this is wicked lame....i hate being soo emotional sometimes. yeah heather is going to be over anytime now.
ohh all i got to say is (dark day dawning) look them up......