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When you think of me? What do you really think OF ME? I mean beacuse when i see myself, i feel sick .. do you feel like that to? I have a huge group of freinds..well there all guys besides one... but i still feel distant and not welcome , and these are my own freinds, I dont even feel safe and happy around my boyfreind anymore, I dont wanna be depressed anymore. Its just not fair. Im guna let them lock me up. I wouldnt let them take my away from my home before. But this isnt home anymore. Where is my daddy when i need him? and Why wont my mommy hold me in her arms anymore? craddle me to sleep and tell me im beatiful and that there is no one better then me in the world. Where is my best freind.. my brother , how come he dosent love me anymore? Did i change? Am i worse then i was before? What happend to me ? WHERE THE FUCK DID MY LIFE GO !! my house my home .. my family where did they go !! I know i did it , and i dont how to fix it ... I want to be with them again... with chantel and brittannie ..and i can be a retard and dress and listen to anykind of music i want to .. Im tryin to impresss all these ppl WHY! Everything i do is for you ! I forgot how to be my self .. i dont even remeber my fav color or how to write my poems and how to draw or have fun i dont remeber ! I miss my family..and my 3 closes freinds.. i miss being open to do anything and creative and happy to some point .. now i hate school i hate my freinds house and and .. i miss my home but i dont wanna be here either.
What do you do when you've lost all hope..all your happiness and your memories of love and freedom.
I am not wanted anymore...
What do you do when you've lost all hope..all your happiness and your memories of love and freedom.
I am not wanted anymore...