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well, i'm just sitting here thinking alot, kind of about everything. about how my life has changed so much, and about how even now i'm changing into the person i'm going to be for a long time.
i've been thinking alot about my future latly, because the choices i make today affect my future, not only tomorrow but in years to come. and the person i'm becomming is going to shape and decide my future. And my past is going to shape it as well, and as much as i want to stop that, i can't. so i can base it on regrets and mistakes and have that to face the "real world" with or i can take with me lessons and use them to help someone else thorugh life. thats what i wasn't to do, help. and in my futre i want to do that no matter what that means. but i want to do it with a companion, someone who isn't going to stop my dreams, or tell me no. i want someone who will run aong side wiith me. My biggest fear right now is being restrained. i have been and i don't want to be again, i want to see all that life has to offer. and i want to love, because loving someone is the greatest thing in the world, and being loved is the secound greatest. but i don't want to just settle for anyone. i want to find someone who meets all my standards and sweeps me off my feet and can keep up with me.
i want to live, to not just dream, but achieve my dreams
to not just make it through each day crawling, but to fly to go up and beyond. i want to reach my rainbow. i want to make a difference in atleast one persons life. i don't ever want to be famous, where people look up to be because i have money and get my face on a magazine. but i do want to be rememberd as a normal girl, who had normal struggles, but did the unnormal thing and instead of wishing her life was something else, instead of wishing she was someone else..she learned to love who she was, learned to overcome and in this world where clothes and looks make you who you are, learned how to be own person, live her own dreams and learned how to get herself up and fly.
<3_martha
i've been thinking alot about my future latly, because the choices i make today affect my future, not only tomorrow but in years to come. and the person i'm becomming is going to shape and decide my future. And my past is going to shape it as well, and as much as i want to stop that, i can't. so i can base it on regrets and mistakes and have that to face the "real world" with or i can take with me lessons and use them to help someone else thorugh life. thats what i wasn't to do, help. and in my futre i want to do that no matter what that means. but i want to do it with a companion, someone who isn't going to stop my dreams, or tell me no. i want someone who will run aong side wiith me. My biggest fear right now is being restrained. i have been and i don't want to be again, i want to see all that life has to offer. and i want to love, because loving someone is the greatest thing in the world, and being loved is the secound greatest. but i don't want to just settle for anyone. i want to find someone who meets all my standards and sweeps me off my feet and can keep up with me.
i want to live, to not just dream, but achieve my dreams
to not just make it through each day crawling, but to fly to go up and beyond. i want to reach my rainbow. i want to make a difference in atleast one persons life. i don't ever want to be famous, where people look up to be because i have money and get my face on a magazine. but i do want to be rememberd as a normal girl, who had normal struggles, but did the unnormal thing and instead of wishing her life was something else, instead of wishing she was someone else..she learned to love who she was, learned to overcome and in this world where clothes and looks make you who you are, learned how to be own person, live her own dreams and learned how to get herself up and fly.
<3_martha