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Been awhile..
Eh..anyways this week has been good actually. I've been staying under 500 calories a day. But I'm not going to weigh until tomorrow. Kind of anxious...but not exactly in a good way.
Cody got me thinking last night..about how I don't really know myself. How I don't know who I am, what I like...any of those things anymore. I've just been so consumed in this "battle for perfection", that I have just simply forgot everything about myself. But alas, if any of that stuff was important I'm sure I would know it. Bleh...
Anyways, I finally decided I would go to church again, so I'm going tomorrow. But it figures, that the one time I do decide to go, everyone has made plans. So Sarah and Callie are going over to Brittany's, and now Brittany thinks she is the fucking shit because we hangout with her sometimes. ANDANDAND she thinks that she is replacing me, because they're hanging out with her, without me. Ughh..nevermind. >_<
Heh.
Anyways, I WILL get back on top of things with my updating. Hah.
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Eh..anyways this week has been good actually. I've been staying under 500 calories a day. But I'm not going to weigh until tomorrow. Kind of anxious...but not exactly in a good way.
Cody got me thinking last night..about how I don't really know myself. How I don't know who I am, what I like...any of those things anymore. I've just been so consumed in this "battle for perfection", that I have just simply forgot everything about myself. But alas, if any of that stuff was important I'm sure I would know it. Bleh...
Anyways, I finally decided I would go to church again, so I'm going tomorrow. But it figures, that the one time I do decide to go, everyone has made plans. So Sarah and Callie are going over to Brittany's, and now Brittany thinks she is the fucking shit because we hangout with her sometimes. ANDANDAND she thinks that she is replacing me, because they're hanging out with her, without me. Ughh..nevermind. >_<
Heh.
Anyways, I WILL get back on top of things with my updating. Hah.
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