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well yesterday was not to bad, I was in a blah mood, a sad mood...it wasn't fun I felt bad because I didn't want to talk to anyone so I didn't try to keep any conversations going, which is a good way to get people to stop talking to you for like ever but yaa it sucked cuz I just met this awesome guy and stuff and the first few days I was always in a good mood and like happy and stuff and then the past2 Ive been in sad horrible moods and I unno I just feel bad, like he'll probably stop talking to me soon but my own fault w/e I'm mad because I was starting to get better and be more like I was last year at the beginning and I swear I have a minor case of bipolar or something it's the most annoyest thing EVER!! how does one like ones self?
you can't just wake up and say "good morning, my I like myself today!" it's not that simple yet it's so easy to hate yourself....I don't like hateing myself and always being negative about myself and all that, but I don't like being fake either....I don't wanna be all "O I love myself! I'm so hot! Im so glad Im me;)" just so people won't get annoyed with me always complaining about myself when the topic comes up...but then it'd all be fake...and I don't like that idea...there must be someway to change my mind without being all fake n shit....
you can't just wake up and say "good morning, my I like myself today!" it's not that simple yet it's so easy to hate yourself....I don't like hateing myself and always being negative about myself and all that, but I don't like being fake either....I don't wanna be all "O I love myself! I'm so hot! Im so glad Im me;)" just so people won't get annoyed with me always complaining about myself when the topic comes up...but then it'd all be fake...and I don't like that idea...there must be someway to change my mind without being all fake n shit....