and if i'm not ready to let go...
it's so freakin' cold here!!
ok, so you know how everything is going really good, but then something happens, and you can just feel it all about to fall apart.
i have a tendency to run away from my problems. not like real life situations, but more like emotions. something/someone just puts this certain feeling in me, and instead of facing it, i just try and ignore it. and it's hardcore starting to get to me.
i have so many regrets... it's un-fucking-believable.
what sucks the most is that everything has taken place within the last two, or three months.
i was talking to rachel about all of this. and she said it just cause of my pregnancy, that she went through the same thing. it's almost like an epiphany. i see all these people in front of me, and i know exactly what i need to do, everything becomes clear. everything i've done in the past.. everything i stood for, now seems so stupid, and i just want to go back... and embrace everything, instead of pushing it down.
she said that's why it's hard for me to be with greg sometimes too.
it makes sense.
jillian
ok, so you know how everything is going really good, but then something happens, and you can just feel it all about to fall apart.
i have a tendency to run away from my problems. not like real life situations, but more like emotions. something/someone just puts this certain feeling in me, and instead of facing it, i just try and ignore it. and it's hardcore starting to get to me.
i have so many regrets... it's un-fucking-believable.
what sucks the most is that everything has taken place within the last two, or three months.
i was talking to rachel about all of this. and she said it just cause of my pregnancy, that she went through the same thing. it's almost like an epiphany. i see all these people in front of me, and i know exactly what i need to do, everything becomes clear. everything i've done in the past.. everything i stood for, now seems so stupid, and i just want to go back... and embrace everything, instead of pushing it down.
she said that's why it's hard for me to be with greg sometimes too.
it makes sense.
jillian