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Yeahg so I'm updating again because I need a place to get some things down and actual pencil and paper writing is so slow I forget half the things i want to say by the time I'm done with a sentence.
I've been quiet lately. I got masonry for a shop. Joe thought he was hilarious when I said "I'm gonna be a brick layer" and then he said "A brick layer? Well at least you'll be laying something" followed by him laughing his ass off because he thinks he's hilarious. Actually, it was kind of funny but its not my fault I have no sex life.
Well anyways I've done pretty good. Or something. After my friends bitched me out and made a huge deal out of everything I stopped smoking weed. I want to do it again but I dont feel like being bitched at again because no matter what they always find out.
I've been distracted lately and it sucks because of that person. I hate that I started thinking about them because it wont go anywhere. Its frustrating because I think about them and I get that feeling in my stomach... like the butterfly feeling. But then I remember why I shouldn't think about them and I want to scream and hit things and pull my hair out. I dont even know the point in writing all that in here but whatever.
Another thing is that I miss alison. But at the same time I hate her with a burning passion and I hope that she gets hit by a bus full of cannibals and then they eat her half alive body until all thats left of her is her bones. And then they will feed her bones to a pack of wild dogs.
For some reason she was nice to me in ccd but then in school she was just a friggin beast. I miss her because she was that one friend I had, that one best friend that when things were really good or sucked really bad you could go and talk to about it. And I miss that. But I'm frustrated to no end because I dont know what her problem was. She said she 'just got sick of me'. So that make me feel wickid self concious and makes me just not want to be around anyone because they'll all get sick of me too and then who knows, I might wind up being a cold lonely bitch like her. It pisses me the fuck off because Joe told me that she's one of those people that will hate you when youre not there but be nice to you when you are because not matter how much they hate you they dont want you to hate them back.
WEll she can go fuck herself. I seriously hate her. I want to have a big bonfire with all of the things around me that ever had anything to do with alison. I want her in it.
Okay well that was quite a bit of anger.
I dunno I'm wickid frustrated and I'm gonna piss everyone off if I write too much more. I'm going to sleep, goodnight.
I've been quiet lately. I got masonry for a shop. Joe thought he was hilarious when I said "I'm gonna be a brick layer" and then he said "A brick layer? Well at least you'll be laying something" followed by him laughing his ass off because he thinks he's hilarious. Actually, it was kind of funny but its not my fault I have no sex life.
Well anyways I've done pretty good. Or something. After my friends bitched me out and made a huge deal out of everything I stopped smoking weed. I want to do it again but I dont feel like being bitched at again because no matter what they always find out.
I've been distracted lately and it sucks because of that person. I hate that I started thinking about them because it wont go anywhere. Its frustrating because I think about them and I get that feeling in my stomach... like the butterfly feeling. But then I remember why I shouldn't think about them and I want to scream and hit things and pull my hair out. I dont even know the point in writing all that in here but whatever.
Another thing is that I miss alison. But at the same time I hate her with a burning passion and I hope that she gets hit by a bus full of cannibals and then they eat her half alive body until all thats left of her is her bones. And then they will feed her bones to a pack of wild dogs.
For some reason she was nice to me in ccd but then in school she was just a friggin beast. I miss her because she was that one friend I had, that one best friend that when things were really good or sucked really bad you could go and talk to about it. And I miss that. But I'm frustrated to no end because I dont know what her problem was. She said she 'just got sick of me'. So that make me feel wickid self concious and makes me just not want to be around anyone because they'll all get sick of me too and then who knows, I might wind up being a cold lonely bitch like her. It pisses me the fuck off because Joe told me that she's one of those people that will hate you when youre not there but be nice to you when you are because not matter how much they hate you they dont want you to hate them back.
WEll she can go fuck herself. I seriously hate her. I want to have a big bonfire with all of the things around me that ever had anything to do with alison. I want her in it.
Okay well that was quite a bit of anger.
I dunno I'm wickid frustrated and I'm gonna piss everyone off if I write too much more. I'm going to sleep, goodnight.