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Everything has hit a new low. Constant fighting with parents, which equals less Alex-seeing time, and loss of sleep, which equals less energy to care about my grades. Fucked up my chances of seeing Alex Wednesday, although in some form that probably wouldn't have worked out anyways. I think I got dragged into going to see a play on Friday with friends. If I go it'll probably be fun, but I don't know...I guess I'm weird. I want this week to be over with so fast. Its gotten off to the worst start possible and failing the chem test I took today certainly topped it off. But it didn't end there. I got locked out of my house in this freezing rainy weather for two hours-and it was cold and sucky. In truth, I just wanna fast forward to Saturday and Sunday where I can relax the day away with my guy. I need to stop getting so upset when I can't have my way, but lately things just never seem to cooperate. I'm usually not willing to admitt it, but I play it a lot cooler than how I really feel. I think if people really knew I'd scare them off. Getting in the deep end is dangerous. But with how I feel about certain people right now...whether its passionately beautiful, or bad...it's hard not to.
Anyways, I'm gonna go warm up somewhere. Still cold...
later.