what one thinks in the dead of the night

[xeyeziquex]

i have come to the conclusion the i am self destructive when it comes to love see i have this picture of this lonely girl lost and hurt and i some how help her find what she needs to be alive to be free again but no matter how well i know that only happens in movies and books i cant help but hold on to this unattainable wish and so knowing that i can never have this i smoke my life away and envelop my life in the sad and mocob and hope that it will fill that space in me witch i know that i can never have that and still i know this to be a part of who i am and can never change it and i don't think i would if i could

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