All dolled up, waiting for the ambulance.

[xeyesofatragedy]

Well, I've done it this time. It's over, and I'm the one to blame. My misery, unhappiness, and constant gloomy disposition drove you insane. I was only miserable when you weren't around - when I could no longer even hear your voice -when I didn't even know whether you were alive or dead. We only just begun, the fact that you are so willing to give up and turn your back on me after something goes horribly wrong kills me. Now I know that I'm not alone in failure and the willingness to just give up, and run from my problems and fears. My intentions were to never hurt you, to never drive you away from me, but I've failed you - the only person I'd give my life for. You mean the world to me, and the world is ending. I can't even bring myself to tears because what I feel right now is so beyond tears, so beyond words. I could easily end all the pain right now, I'm all dolled up and ready to go - but - I've chosen to put up a fight, and to NOT give up on you - not give up on us, no matter how much this kills me, I will find a way - I will find a way to repair both of these broken hearts.

[Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.]