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I just need to say this -
I'm actually kind of starting to get freaked out.
Seriously.
Yesterday or today in Japan, there was an 8.8 earthquake and a tsunami. It's even headed towards or has already hit the U.S. on the west coast - California, Washington, places in that area.
Then there's been all this protesting in LIbya and other places in the Middle East.
And the war in Iraq/etc.
And just...everything.
I don't openly believe that the Myans or whatever are right, and that the world is going to end in 2012, really.
But, the more shit like this goes on, the harder it is to not think that maybe we're taking all this shit maybe a little too lightly, that maybe we shouldn't be making fucking movies about the world ending. Maybe uh stop fighting and fucking cooperate for once? I mean really why the hell can't we just do that? If we are just gonna all die or whatever next year, wouldn't it be fucking nice if everyone worked together so we can have some peace in this world before we go?
I'm sick of every fucking place I look, there's conflict or a war or just some stupid shit. And then we got all this bullcrap with people focusing on nothing but fucking celebrities and how they're fucking up their lives and other peoples' lives? *cough* Charlie Sheen *cough*.
Seriously. The world needs to calm the fuck down and talk.
If the world don't end in 2012, I'm pretty damn sure there's going to be a fucking World War III.
I am not looking forward to that one fucking bit. I hate war, I think it's stupid. We should be able to all fucking work something out, okay? Without guns, without nukes, without people killing each other and calling it "dying for their country."
And before anybody comments and fucking freaks out, no I am NOT against the soldiers who put themselves in the line of fire.
I am against the fucking governments who either a) declare war for dumbass reasons or b) get themselves mixed up in things they shouldn't because they want to be ~noble and ~helpful.
I'm just really sick of the state of the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm not even alive, I'm just so out of everything and like...I don't know. I feel so...disconnected? Not real? I'm not sure how to describe it, but maybe some of you get what I'm trying to say.
But anyways, how the world is right now isn't helping that at all. And honestly? Making me want to die again. I'm tired of seeing suffering, I'm tired of hearing about celebrity-obsessed teens and adults, and I'm just fucking exhausted of this world. There has to be someplace better than this shit hole of an Earth.
I just wish I could find it.
Okay, I have to go get ready for school now.
To the victims of the Japan tragedy - I do not normally pray. But you and your families are all in my thoughts today. Good luck.
xxx
~Christie
p.s. Yeah so lol I almost forgot about the cut on my arm and my mom almost saw it. Idk if that woulda been good but y'know. It's high up but ugh fucking short sleeve shirts not being long enough >.>
Note to self - never put hand sanitizer on cuts, even if they aren't very deep. It hurts like a fucking bitch. And hot water hurts too lol.
Note to self #2 - cutting with dull scissors doesn't get very deep, but still um ow.
okaybye